Totally Random

I'm totally random today, but not over random like bumping into someone and claims that i heart them.

Do you agree that teenagers should express more of themselves? My answer is totally, Dream & enjoy every moment. [ to be continued at here ]

Now's 4pm, i just got back from immigration ( work ) now back at office blogging, obviously. met si Jiwang tadi it was very nice of him. :D and i don't know why i said something that i shouldn't had mention. Think i should be more careful with myself.

Going home soon, awesome much. Do you know that 10th & 15th is a public holiday ? no work which is great, wonders what am i going to do. but i know i probably will be staying at home watching movies.

Going out again later at 7+ with yanshiang to another group thingy. Food ! :D

I think i've beeen expecting too much, i know the quote of " don't expect too much or expect the unexpect-ed " crap.

Can this even be considered as expecting too much ? It's just that life has been very full for me.

I guess i'll just have to walk step by step and be more careful. :D cause i feeeel like flyingg. :)

badminton,my name,good july

Yesterday, beeen busy working with some work which i was committed to do. paaans. hehe`

but yesterday was not as i expected, because i assumed that i would be with my lovely TV in the night but instead i was out with YanShiang. I don't understand why but i didn't manage to saw her msg that she was coming.

So, yea` we went to play Badminton. and gosh` am i great. i haven been sweating like that for months !

I'm like a water pipe leaking and then i miss gym and the peoples. 

Thanks again to Yanshiang. (: beeeen a great sister.

and guess what, tonight, tomorrow night, saturday, sunday ! am filled up with so much activities. (:

next week ! yeaaa. would be same as this weeeek` busy nights. then wau, seriously am so excited with the upcoming next two week. Meeting all those people, hope am so ready that they won't have to light any judgement on this kid.

I'm having hard time telling people my name. Pls say " ruiiii" is it so hard to pronounce? Noooo` 

so i've beeeeen thinking of a new nick name and i can't think of any ! nothing i loikee`

Probably next time i would just say "hey,my name is rui "   " whatt? rr.. "  " errr, you can call me anything you want "

Really looking forward to everyweek` everyweek has beeen planned out awesome-ly.

Would just pray in the night, and pray before sunrise ( joke )

But yeaa` Hope Everything will go on well in God's will.

I'm really thankful for the people i know which relates to the future plan we're going to have.

Everything is a blessing. (: Can't express how awesome i am now, but it's really awesome.

And i hope the people i cared, the awesome family member would be doing great each day as i am too.

Misses them & we'll meeeet sooon. <3

a guy at bank, my lovely brothers

Jul's ! will you be my love. :D

Yesterday` i went to the bank. and i saw this guy, whom approaches us and asked whether would we want to use other services. I didn't see that one coming, but i know i did stared at him. Cause i seen him before, i think it took me like 30 second to recall where i seen him before.

brain getting slower to respond, something wrong perhaps.

When i was young, it's been really hard for me to take care my 3 wildest monkey brother. I had to shout like H*** !!

Scream and everything to the worst of me had been revealed. And i thought when they grew up, i would surrender myself to the Mental Hospital. But last night, they were quite adorable when i'm so tired that all i can do is lie down, they gathered in front of my bed and can't stop talking and asking and talking and talking. They even want to play Hide and seek in the dark.

It's really cute. :D i hope i could have the ability to give them the proper guidance my parents failed to give us.

no parents were ever made perfect, they're human too. So, i do not blame but at least be an adult. but apparently, everyone's a Child.

90210 is getting better, guess i will enjoy the first season. :)

everyday has been a blessed. especially those wonderful people God has brought us together to do something wonderful.

I thanked God, for He brought the perfect people to me. :)

Jul's coming, 90210 dissapointing

Had a weird dream just now. I got scolded by my boss ( auntie ) which is so.... (not very scary)
but` in my house, nothing i say is right. They're always right even they're obviously wrong, ( talk about being right huh ? ). So, better just shut my mouth in whatever the circumstances may be.

Sleepless night !
I find myself having insomnia again, like before. Wonders what's up with me again this time.
and when i can't sleep at night. i go onlineeee. -____-"

I bought 90210 sudah. Well, i'm not enjoying much. They look youngg. Am i not into teenage movie now?
I bought the original one instead the duplicated one cause i rather pay more to have a better movie collection.
I actually regretted that i bought that movie with such a dissatisfying result.
Rather buy " Gossip Girl & How i Met your Mother "
Forget it, hope i'll love it when i finished 90210.

Let me see, July is just 2 days away.
July's quite packed up. :D at least i got things to do.
But errmm. something is coming up on the 3rd week of Jul.
Hope i could work things out well.

God Bless me, and blesses you.
May everyday be awesome for you. :D

Awesome meeting and people

Insomnia ! 3.09am sudah. Tapi aku masih tak dapat tidur.

Last night memang awesome lah. R meet meha, hasanah, marilyn, yati, catherine and hani. ( Ingat semua ) 'tepuk tngan' hahaha.
Btw its coool. Love the conversation. They are really great, a blessed to know them.

Also tengah malam ne. Due to over hyper and happpy caused insomnia. Heee.

Chat with abang al tadi. Really miss that awesome dude whom just got back from sg.

And chat with two awesome bros. Bro fyzan and kyz. But I bet fyzan fall asleep while we were chatting. As usual. Haha.

And lots more fun. Would just pray that everything goes well.

Everyday has been difficult for everyone despite the trials and obstacles to overcome. I hope everyone that I cared would stay strong in handling all the tests. Amen !


Love you all.
Love my awesome bro and sis.
And love edwestwick (for the mean time) haha. Paaaans.

Xoxo-r

Petangs, malams.

Feeels bored nowadays. Kerja kerja kerja sahaja. 5 more months to go. Bila aku baru boleh ambil lesen kereta ni?

Meeting karang. Noice, love it. Well lets just pray semuanya lancar k. Cousin coming down next week. Seems like july is going to be fun.

Today, I got my salary. Saving most of it. Later buy new series lagi. Since I finished watching gossip girl. Which I really really like one character.

Anyway, my research tells me 90210 is not bad. So later imma get my hands on season 1.
Kinda obsessed w the series, I wanna get the original ones rather than the burn-ed cd. Quite annoying.

Gossip girl, shooting season 4 on july.
Still no sound of ugly betty, they stopped shooting that mv already. Kinda sad when I missed her.

Missed my awesome peeps.
Hopefully everyone is doing fine.

China town soon

Excited or not excited ?

This babe is going to China Town next month !

She just sat on plane ONCE when she's 2 year young to KL with family

( told by parents )

So, next month going to Sit in the Big Whale's body :D

i hope she won't freak out too much, Overjoy perhaps.

18th July 

Nudge her so she won't forget to get something back for you.

She thinks i'm what? , not in love

I'm a sensitive person, Well not in a totally bad way of course.

I feel something weird yesterday, I'm guessing something but i didn't really mentioned about it.

Well, i assume some jerks are poisoning my backside. ( hopefully not )

Not that i mind someone actually trying to. 

Answered prayer. Well, God is indeed listening to our prayers.

3 prayer & was answered the next day. - 2 completed, 1 pending ( future ) 

it would be epic awesome if the last one was answered.

But i knowwww & i believeee. :D future ♥

Life is just Awesome.

Before you judge, investigate.

I'm not so into you babe, your so not my cup of tea. ( your not even a tea - if you get what i mean ) :D

Have a nice day everyone. xoxo

& am glad things went well with my awesome sis. :D ♥

in my own world

Today, i'm so much in my own world. Not in my own sense about the differences between dream and reality. 

They say dream do come true so perhaps dreams are just a part of reaching reality too. Well, whichever is real i still love dreaming. Dreams are part of making life so wonderful too. and No` am not talking about the dream you had when your mind is unconscious. 

Life felt so much awesome at this moment.

And it would be perfectly awesome if that really happens.

till then xoxo ;D

brokened

Broken-ed `

Something is broken, find it and mend it,

before someone swept it away & you'll never get to make it right again.

-Smers

love was a Mask

Everyone hurts :)

Three Nights ago,

I seek & found that all the love was a lie.

All of them, they were after something.

 And love was just a Mask they used to cover up their real image.

Love's a Mask you used to fool me.

And A fool i was to believe all the words you promised.

Just stab me in the heart, 

may all the emotion & feelings be drained away from me.

So, nor pain & love will i feel.

- smers

PS/ nothing personal. :)

i have a dream

i have a dream` lalalala ~

yeaaa` i had a dream awhile back, just recalled.

i had a dream, and people that i cared were there

 with their shinning smile,

just for me.

i close my eyes, laughter and joy is all that i could hear.

Miss the awesome family. (:

and the awesome-ness.

realization

realization`

Realize what are you trying to do,

what are you trying to prove,

& all those unnecessary action, what are you trying to show ? 

Save those drama, fake smiles & laughter.

if there were true smiles, i would had smile too.

i couldn't laugh at the jokes your trying to makes people laugh.

all i can do is just smirk.

Take your time to realize what has gone into you.

life is awesome. what's life to you.

Dropped !

What's the thing that kept you from surviving this cruel world.

Life has been awesome. Awesome has been awesome :D

Well, i loved to have some excitement in my life. :) 

well, when i mentioned excitement what i really mean is having someone to keep this heart pumping at it's maximum rate, rather than it's regular normal rate. ;D

On serious Diet ! Thing is, can i do it ?

I'm SO serious when i said, i wanna go on DIET no moree eatingg muchieee !

but by the second someone passed by with a plate of foood. my stomach starts to grumblee *

-__________-"

What is Life to you ?

To me, Life is so much like a GAME

it's a different story for those who are pursue-ing further studies unlike me. :)

Taking a course or even a higher qualification.

To secure a safe pay and even a higher pay & there's where a Life of you begins. 

I would never wanted to agree on this issue, because some wont even SURVIVE in this Life without a Qualification, a Certified Qualification.

okayy` so much to take about that. :P currently working out on a article. :) cya <3

The word Awesome comes from? HIMYM

Awesome !

I started to collect Movie Series, ever since i'm working.

That's a LIE !

but i did get more after i got this job to support my budget.

First, i watched " Heroes " it's really an awesome movie. well, actually brilliant !

A friend of mine intro "How i Met your Mother" & that's gonna be my ALL time Fav Movie.

Even my Little Brothers Love it. 

He even asked as if i could ever bring him to meet TED ! -___-" 

cute actually. ;D

And because of that movie, i started to say the word " Awesome " every now and then.

Barney influenced me, :P && i just Read his Blog` it's epic awesome ! ;P

His just simple WAU !

Actually i planned on something stupid. Well, that's so ME !

But i better think twice ( maybe more than twice ) why should i take such unnecessary action ?

In the end, i might not be able to do it. :D future who knows <3 

Back to why i talked about Awesome ! (:

i always watched CHUCK and they all called his sister's fiancee Capt.Awesome.

and address his family the Awesomes' (:

soundddddd Awesome indeed. 

so yeaaaa` made up a Awesome family on my own. <3 let it groww.

Things you need to learn in life,

. Sometimes, you just need to let go that ego you've been holding on just to show that your not weak. 

[Fact,] Humans are weak well emotionally. so dont hide, or just Hide it and you'll lose it.

his back, movie addict

Evening !

I really can't work here ! :D so Not my life.

Am dyinggg, well literally :P

Movie has been a great companion. 

But they made me waste a lot of money on them. ;(

i bought stories to stories and series to series.

and that's how my money fly fly fly ` ~

But still i <3

abandoning all taiwan series, korean series at the moment 

& make love with all those orang puteh mv. :D

His back ! :) and all i did was " awwwww ~ his back "

when i see his ON msn ;D

" that's all you got, rui ? " :P

" that's enoughhhh` " ;P

Tick tock tick tock, well tick faster ! can;t wait June, July, Aug, Sept to pass ! :) also OCT ;P

Love much ^^

a moment of joy. :) heart ouch

I'm glad the smile camed and took frown's place.

But it was just a few moment till i realize those smile were fake.

or that i was wrong again ? well, i hope i'm wrong.

Forget it. :) 

Action Speaks Louder than word.

Time will show the inner truth of someone.

i hate that my mind kept flashing back of the past and i can't control it.

Running my fingers down against the to be healed wounds.

feels like stabbing it deeper, let the feeling pours it all until nothings left.

am just jokingg. kes boreng (: ignore.

new stuffies, casual

Hola :)

I believe i did well.

Letting go i said and letting go i did.

Not absolutely tho. but yea :)

so many thoughts i had in my mind last few days.

So i took a pen out and wrote them down, and realize writing a diary is fun :)

and do hope i dont become lazy and stop writing. 

getting new stuffies <3

i realize that i don't want to have a DSLR camera already.

getting a cute mini camera for a change. :D casual <3

Losing fats not weights ! haha`

i dont want to lose weight but fats are still there hanging ego-ishly.

hey Fats ! you dont belong to me so stop sticking around. kekeke ~

Awesome babydoll got new ideas for her awesome script <3

about me about you about the L O V E hehe ~

can't wait !

Misses babyfat sis. who is currently no where to be found in land of Brunei Darussalam.

Countdown till Nov <3 month of love. :P