Once again, that look in your eyes. Those eyes that is filled with hatred, i wonder when did they started to appear. :') no matter what, i missed those eyes that is filled with love when you started at me. but i know those eyes are lost long time ago, i was just being too foolish to realize that those eyes were long gone.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Love is a Big Word
Love is a big word. i don't really like this word before, there wasn't any good place for me to use this word. but i've been using it recently, and now i decided that, this word just take a 'break' for some time. For me - i believe that this word should only be used when you truly meant it deeply. Otherwise, this word should be forbid because the weight of this word is not little.
Everything for me is up side down now. i believe that i am lost, lost of direction. no longer understand the universe of life. but it's okay, tho i know that i wouldn't be able to hold on to this feeling for long but i guess just have to.
Love no longer owns any meaning for me. Because love is no longer a sign of happiness for me, the word 'love' in this world is just 'a word' the word 'love' hold no meaning at all. And i am slowly believing that there's no true happiness in this world. everything is so thin, even for the love that is so strong - fact is it is really really that thin because it can be break at any moment.
Happiness could only bring much fear for me now, because how happy i could be is how badly unhappy i would be then. because love can no longer comfort me anymore, love wasn't filled to heal my scars when i got hurt, love was no longer there when i needed.
so the word, treat others how you wanted to be treated is a total bullshit! :) it's a TOTAL bullshit ! :) right now, things should slowly vanished. everything is wearing thin, anything can break at any moment.
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the love's foundation is so weak, that's why my parents divorce. love was meaningless, if it has more impact - probably things wouldn't end up this way.. i no longer understand why was even love started. i sorta hate love :) hehe' because love hurts, love is cruel. love is so fake ! if my mom had truly loved me i bet she wouldn't leave. love is selfish, love is one self's desire, love only think about themselves. the word 'love' is all lies. love is bullshit, Great!
Pride , Ego and Yourself is bigger than LOVE :) haha- awesome.
Everything for me is up side down now. i believe that i am lost, lost of direction. no longer understand the universe of life. but it's okay, tho i know that i wouldn't be able to hold on to this feeling for long but i guess just have to.
Love no longer owns any meaning for me. Because love is no longer a sign of happiness for me, the word 'love' in this world is just 'a word' the word 'love' hold no meaning at all. And i am slowly believing that there's no true happiness in this world. everything is so thin, even for the love that is so strong - fact is it is really really that thin because it can be break at any moment.
Happiness could only bring much fear for me now, because how happy i could be is how badly unhappy i would be then. because love can no longer comfort me anymore, love wasn't filled to heal my scars when i got hurt, love was no longer there when i needed.
so the word, treat others how you wanted to be treated is a total bullshit! :) it's a TOTAL bullshit ! :) right now, things should slowly vanished. everything is wearing thin, anything can break at any moment.
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the love's foundation is so weak, that's why my parents divorce. love was meaningless, if it has more impact - probably things wouldn't end up this way.. i no longer understand why was even love started. i sorta hate love :) hehe' because love hurts, love is cruel. love is so fake ! if my mom had truly loved me i bet she wouldn't leave. love is selfish, love is one self's desire, love only think about themselves. the word 'love' is all lies. love is bullshit, Great!
Pride , Ego and Yourself is bigger than LOVE :) haha- awesome.
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