26.10.2013
This Happiness Is Killing Me ;
Might have you know that "Happiness" is something that i felt was missing in my life for a long long time, something that i seek for, something that i was always longing for.
Almost 2 years ago, thank God that i found someone to fill this missing piece in my heart. He then became my happiness, the happiness that i am now holding on tightly no matter how many bruise that i've got along the way.. i am still holding on.. not willing to let go..
the road seems to be very unclear now, there's no exact answer because there wasn't any answer here on earth, words from man is not sufficient enough to be an answer. because our 'faith' and 'destiny' is all written by God, and the best thing i could ever do is pray.
let's say one day .. one day, who knows.. maybe.. maybe.. just maybe..
if that ever happens, that i lost that happiness that i am holding on to.. im sure, it would break me apart. yes, it's easy to say this and that but ... my heart would shattered into million pieces.. i guess, i wont be able to handle myself, i would lose myself..
what i really really hope for is that, hoping that happiness wont let go of me that easily.. recalling all that we've been through, it was never easy but we were perfect for each other. the wonderful love that we had, i wished to continue that journey of love till whenever. some part of me still believes, still believes that he was still the same person i knew when i first met him. his still that kind hearted boy, that lovely boy whose so wonderful to me.. he wouldnt hurt me :)
the best i could ever do, is pray.
diqtasmers.
truly, your wife.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
Patience is GOLD !
15.10.2013
Patience is GOLD ! is what i learned 2 days ago. i was put to test on the value that i was lacking the most. 'patience' - at the same time, i guess it meant putting your trust onto The Almighty and surrendering it all. Because when things is beyond our control, acknowledge that not everything can go the way we wanted. If it is meant to be, it will eventually. if it's not, then no matter what we do, we can't fight with destiny. :)
i ought to admit, that my heart has recognized and found the real one and only true God. i guess in the end, no matter what i choose or decide - it is still my life and my story to tell whether it's right or wrong, let God be the one to judge.
so far, i've been thankful for what i got and had. eventho i am actually on the path of many obstacles to overcome, but im keeping it as positive as i can and surrendering it all to God as only God knows what's the best for me. Hopefully all will be well - have faith.
Family -
Either had or have i tried to communicate with them or not - thing is .. they're too busy doing their own thing so i guess it's just a period thing since they are going through their teenage life. Mom has been who she always is, she would be around during Sundays just to spend the night since her partner isn't around. Not feeling that she has been showing up in my life at the moment, because she's living one of her own now. Dad has been quite quiet nowadays, his always facing his phone whenever i get to see him or facing the computer. not much topic or things to share at home as it's like each of us are just living our own lives. hmm. what more can i say.
Business -
Starting a business soon. hopefully all will turn out well.
truly yours,
diqtasmers
Patience is GOLD ! is what i learned 2 days ago. i was put to test on the value that i was lacking the most. 'patience' - at the same time, i guess it meant putting your trust onto The Almighty and surrendering it all. Because when things is beyond our control, acknowledge that not everything can go the way we wanted. If it is meant to be, it will eventually. if it's not, then no matter what we do, we can't fight with destiny. :)
i ought to admit, that my heart has recognized and found the real one and only true God. i guess in the end, no matter what i choose or decide - it is still my life and my story to tell whether it's right or wrong, let God be the one to judge.
so far, i've been thankful for what i got and had. eventho i am actually on the path of many obstacles to overcome, but im keeping it as positive as i can and surrendering it all to God as only God knows what's the best for me. Hopefully all will be well - have faith.
Family -
Either had or have i tried to communicate with them or not - thing is .. they're too busy doing their own thing so i guess it's just a period thing since they are going through their teenage life. Mom has been who she always is, she would be around during Sundays just to spend the night since her partner isn't around. Not feeling that she has been showing up in my life at the moment, because she's living one of her own now. Dad has been quite quiet nowadays, his always facing his phone whenever i get to see him or facing the computer. not much topic or things to share at home as it's like each of us are just living our own lives. hmm. what more can i say.
Business -
Starting a business soon. hopefully all will turn out well.
truly yours,
diqtasmers
Friday, October 4, 2013
trust
#chasinghappiness
no doubt that everyone in the world is always searching for happiness in their lives. whatever we do, we are to believe that by doing so - we would be happy.
chasing happiness,
More than 2 months passed, there was no clarity yet. im not sure how long would this last, nor do i know the reason behind each action and words. at this moment, i could only put all my trust in God because that's the best thing anyone can ever do. i've been .. swimming in a pool of pain for this few weeks, and everytime when i touched my heart.. it felt as if a knife is piercing through the same spot over and over again.. how i wished i can get back to the past and reverse some of the things that i did.. that i choose to do.. the decision that i made.. but at the same time, i also believe that ... this was 'meant to be'
things keep happening, whether it is good or bad.. whether i like it or not.. it just keep happening.. we just need to learn to accept the bad and believe the best out of it.
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no doubt that everyone in the world is always searching for happiness in their lives. whatever we do, we are to believe that by doing so - we would be happy.
chasing happiness,
More than 2 months passed, there was no clarity yet. im not sure how long would this last, nor do i know the reason behind each action and words. at this moment, i could only put all my trust in God because that's the best thing anyone can ever do. i've been .. swimming in a pool of pain for this few weeks, and everytime when i touched my heart.. it felt as if a knife is piercing through the same spot over and over again.. how i wished i can get back to the past and reverse some of the things that i did.. that i choose to do.. the decision that i made.. but at the same time, i also believe that ... this was 'meant to be'
things keep happening, whether it is good or bad.. whether i like it or not.. it just keep happening.. we just need to learn to accept the bad and believe the best out of it.
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