finding my authentic self.

If you just left.
I didn't knew what to say when someone express their sadness about a friend leaving life soon. where's my mind ? i told myself to think deep, what if i was in her shoe and how would i feel ? wow, and the first person that came into my mind is Him. I haven seen him for almost one and a half year now and no, i never seen his shadow even.


Imagine if he just leave this world and knowing that i haven took any action just to look for him and ask how is he doing, which i'm always wondering for all this time and now that i don't have the chance to ? Gosh, i don't think i could accept that. i wouldn't want to accept that as a fact, no way. is this a sign that i should take action now ? :) * 


I had a Good Day, Big Guy is fully energized. you should have hear HIM shouting over kakaotalk ! :D and haha, its really crazy. such an energy booster. my morning was pleasant, tho i was half asleep but the policemen was kind enough to play a dramatic scene because i told him im married. :D and the act was so funny i basically burst into laughters :) 


i was surprised to received a message from someone who i really wanted to be friends w. but that person kinda acted cold on me, so i was like 'oh okayy' and i forgot it :) and it was such a surprised when that person actually texted and give me such great compliments. wow. :D talk about staying positive eys.


who am i ?
People starting to give me names and i kinda live up to it from then on. but who i really am ? the names given were great and definitely 'Awesome' but its kinda bad because it contains so much praise and compliments. and to me, they are not healthy at all. :D so not not healthy.


it always been part of my desire to learn to know my authentic self. :)
because my attitude and behavior always grow with the environment and sometimes, it grew in a bad direction. But, i just wanna express my gratitude for all the love and care even by bringing me up as part of those events. Im just too happy and i'm speechless as i enjoyed what ever i can do to make you all feeeeel happpyyy x3


much love.

not a bad day

i had a meaningful conversation with a guy name "Cameron" . The guy who purchased a tour from me and also whom turn out to spend approx 20mins just listening to me talking and sharing. The content is more about how amazing life could be and surprisingly i enjoyed such conversation. I started to 'tembak' them right even they opened their mouth and complain, i already shot them with words of positiveness! and haha ! i feel good and there were left speechlessly just smiling at me asking 'how old am i" ? well, age doesn't matter but its how we live this life. ( no idea which direction am i going now )


i stumbled upon a snapper and geez his GOOD ! 

check his masterpiece out ! 
this was taken about 5pm at serasa beach, Brunei.
and this snapper is really amazing, i mean i try not to even comment his pictures tho all of them caught my attention, but this one caught me speechless and i had to say something :) turn out his a friendly guy who kept replying my IG, as well as his Mate @amiranas whom also owned awesome pictures and this two friends have funny sharings on how they became buddies ! :)


i was a bit concern about the matters related to my country and i just kinda wanna raise some aware ness here. come on, stop living your own life please have some aware ness.
and so i approached a social dude, turn out his not a man with much words. So, ---- dead conversation ---- no support from my statement -,- #blahh  * boring *


Perhaps, they will start the talk when it like OBVIOUSLY serious case. 


I had a crazy day, imagine a day where i lost my security pass and had to bother my boss to send me to balai when theres NO ONE at all at the counter. and we had to rushed because London flight is landing, "sempat" me santai2 at the police's booth. sitting inside like im one of them -,- my boss didnt manage to STOP nagging and complaining but i take it all normally. it doesnt seems like a bad day today, nor can i blame anyone because the pass just suicide.


i remained a positive energy and haha, again the world reflects like a mirror. :) i had an awesome day.


Sunday is just in the corner, i could take my off that day. :D
ouch# but thanks BIG FISH cause im on for the next Journey :D


much love

Daddys love 

Little Girl standing on dad's big shoe with both tiny feets , cute ness :) how i wish im that girl and daddy is w me.

Really my energy Booster

One guy asked me something that i didnt knew how to answer but after giving some thoughts to it, i realize MILO was the ans to my secret of being a SUPER 10! :)

The empty airport at 8:22am in the morning ;)

not every mom likes stranger to snapp thier cute babies :0

Uploaded - 6\29\11

Taken yesterday while im doing a late night tour. 'sanggup' lah. for what ? one can really forget what you ever did when it comes to you doing one tiny bits mistake.

perhaps i can say the incident today wouldnt had turn out like that if she didnt cared for me enough. well, she did and thats why she ain happy :O

morning

morning :) 
perhaps you havent hears the complain that i have this morning :) i post it up on tumblr an on the second thought what heck am i thinking? one is enough - choose between blogspot and tumblr! 

im not going to repeat the blog tittle ' everything happens for a reason' infact sitting down here today is not a bad thing  


this morning was a beaut but not for this guy. he was standing and waiting for his transport for the past 20mins perhaps and theyre was no one to pick him up. i walked over and helped him. His taking a tour arranged by his travel agent thinking that the travel company wil arrange his transport to the rads hotel but it wasnt so he got a bit unhappy and dashed off pulling his two luggages to get a taxi.  (bad experience, travel agent should provided clearer information)

Humbly His,
love always -rui

short post

Sunday is like 5 days away and how exactly excited am i ? think about everyone will be there, think about all the fun and food :) well, yea im very excited. Especially when we're a group of awesome peeps that hold on to the ' official hug collectors ' tittle. we rock the world. :) it was such an amazing experience with GB ! :)


i kinda fixed something up in my blog which i haven did it for like how long, a Year ? seriously, omg ! 


i think i kinda got back my interest in blogging but this wont last long, i mean i've been blogging since when ? since i was like 15 ? and now it's almost 4 years but i never knew what kind of blog am i really creating. or what exactly am i always blogging about, as i kinda just blog my thoughts :) so its a random ! :)


im kinda addicted to twitter and facebook and blogging obviously. im kinda weird because i never really knew what exactly i desired deep down within, because i always wanted something and when it just comes to me, i kinda backed off and felt a bit of 'eww'


i was on doing a night tour and geez; i miss abang Boy, its more than a year now that i haven seen his face or smile. Tho his always near, but our heart has drawn each other far far away. His the first guy whom showed me so much care like a brother. :D i enjoyed his company :)


theres more to blog about. and omg ! im checking on mac air's price now and im getting it end of JULs. <3 intention babies ! woots

i heart Brunei !

I just kinda finished my tour #window of Brunei, its a Free Transit Tour provided by @Royal Brunei Airlines for Passengers traveling from Auckland, Ho Chi Minh, Brisbane, Melbourne, Perth and London via Dubai. And you need to have at least 4 Hours transit in #Brunei international airport. So yea, its my job to provide such services and promote Brunei.

Not much people knows #Brunei or you can actually say, many people doesn’t even know the existence of this country. I remember when there’s his two girls came over me and said they didn’t want to be rude but they wanted to change some money and didn’t knew where exactly they are right now. and i was like ’ what? , that like the funniest thing a person ever asked me ” and i give them some tips, next time if you have no idea where you are, just say you want to change some ‘local money’

Sincerely loves my Job, my company and my country. I never knew how awesome this country is until i studied tourism for less than 2 weeks. I gained so many knowledge which i never knew about Brunei tho i was living at this very place for like 17 years but didnt knew so much about it. i didn’t knew the approx population of this country, i didn’t knew we had the “Proboscis Monkey” which was one of the endangered animals. What we all (youngsters) have in mind is that Brunei is a very “Boring” Country because there’s no Night Life, no Alcohol and etc but that’s not true infact we live in one of the best destination on earth where we no earthquake, no volcanic eruption, no major flood is experienced. The Best thing is there’s “No income tax” where as in other country you have to pay certain amount of your salary to the government.

If you heard of the news about RBA suspending 5 Flights during late October, it’s all over the news. People from Auckland started to spread this news and talking about it and i was heartbroken when RBA passengers talked about the suspension of flights and they praises that the people in the plane are very friendly, good services, they were impressed and they really enjoyed being here and doing a sightseeing tour around Brunei. its truly ” A Kingdom with Unexpected Treasures “

I honestly didn’t know what to do because its such a shame that RBA is suspending all those flights because without those flights, whose going to visit Brunei ? and how are we going to promote Brunei ? I understand that it’s also a tough decision made by the airlines, perhaps what we can really do now is to give them our full support. Would love to see them back operating these flights again.

Cheers*

much love,

itsrui smers

Wishlist

My Happy Moments

My mate is getting is very first apple product and white for him because its 'sexy' , i wanted to get one as well but then on the second thought perhaps i will just wait for iphone 5 which wil be released on September. its just 2-3months away, i can wait  and ios 4! mama mia, honka honka  its love at first sight . 

in my wish list of apple product i was caught between buying an ipad2 or mac book! but in the end, i might consider mac air over ipad2 because ipad2 is like the fatter version of iphone. 

so ipad 2 and iphone 4 is OFF my list ! 

there few topics that im concern of, and would love to touch on them :)
' what does it means to be truthful?' 
and i came across this topic,  'why Brunei never improves' 

should i get a tumblr? 
im such a two hearted girl, always wanted to this and that but always end up doing nothing  

you hate me?

Do you agree that theres always love within hate? and by most of the times when someone is jealous/hates you is because one they like you or two they felt that your better than them. and its always very true when someone wants to bring you down because your on top of them. 

i was picturing about what could happen when someone is better than me comes in, the fear of replacement surrounds me but then my mind alert that my thoughts are wrong because we are all the same and by saying that he/she is better i realize i subconsiously limited my ability to perform at my best  so everyone is the same, its about how you show up! be a SUPER 10, rui and the awesome ness will flow automatically. 

we had a meeting and she leaked some news about whose the brainwasher  gotcha !! 

my mate and i acted as middle shits and interviewed for new staff. we had like 10+ people who showed up last night and we had few whom we had an eye on :) but theres this girl whose such a BOMB !  shes going to do well ! hopefully that the fast learner do can run. 

how many days more till sunday?  ? BRING IT ON  
i miss BEACH! and i miss them ! :D my hug collecting buddies. 

TALE NOTE; im getting a new number and im abanding this one soon 

Sunday 

yawns* it was definitely worth it for what Gb and i did yesterday, driving over to big guys house and help him. he insisted not to see us but fcuk that cause we have to be there for him. it was such an amazing moment tho we thought we couldnt settle it. i was very proud of them, i hoped my parents could be like them - willing to make a change for the family :) many thanks to GB as you were there as w me- i really appreciate it, it just display how wonderful all our relationships are :)

something so amazing :) how can i ever forget that? something that i always dreamt of doing just happened. thank God :) 

woke up like a zombie :D sleep walking omg! and shouting out loud 'Morning' to al that passes #trying to wake myself up (haha) 
i tried music but it lift nothing up cause im like a human without battery to be charged.

unnessasary feelings is really unnessasary :) these feelings comes in once in awhile and im not surprised. but no matter in what way they appear i still didnt have the confident to show my inner feelings and it sucks  they dont matter, 

iphone 4 aint good enough? cause haha im getting an iphone 5 with ios 5. siao me kaya? haha me ada hati laa. and also tomorrow is the interviewing night, come to think of it. a 18year old kid interviewing them all and so. wtf is that? but again bigfish always remind me that i should hold on to that thought because it kept me from growing but sometimes i do think that way. im just a kid. 

workwise; well they pissed me but i choose to do my best e a better approach. doing my best and so should you. 

Humbly His,
love always -rui

smile :)

oh boyy am i thrilled :)

well, tho my mentor was quite dissapointed he still official announce that i'll be continuing my journey. and i had real Fun :) my class was the Bomb ! awesome :)

but after that i haven got the chance to meet my mentor nor have i heard any news from him :o his still my mentor whatt :) - 

silly moments;
i was late the first day of work and my boss was very dissapointed that she intended to complain to bigfish  but i choosed to be positive and do my best. so the universe kinda responded  cause boss called and asked me not to be neg and be a 10!

days later, i think the aligned because my boss decided to let me back incharge and she intende to leave it all to me. which wow' awesome but im still a kid and bigfish always highlight that i should say that. 

today is like one of the best and worst crazy day. 
haha, had tons of sales, tons of people but omg! the problem is like omg! but stay positive :)

its quite sad when big guy announced that he may not join the next journey, got most of our heart feeling not continuing as well. i wonders whats going to happen next but either way, i cant wait for the beach gathering :)

think im getting my car soon. omg! i kinda forget todays date. 22 and mama said i maybe getting new ride on the 28th which i intended to take my offday. :) i need a day off to watch all the movie series i bought. (hehe)

im quite dissapointed about RBA deciding to suspend 5 important flights on oct. that crazy okay because who else wil be transiting in brunei? 
my job is to promote brunei but now that these flights are going to be cancel, i dont think there would be anyone coming. geez' and for the past weeks, almost 80% of the flight got delay and cancel which is so BAD. as well as brunei didnt successfully display their culture and traditions ' speaking of promoting brunei and having tourism to be the second income. *very dissapointed* 
i hope to see more improvement :O wonders whats brunei tourisms respond about this.  


Humbly His,
love always -rui


Humbly His,
love always -rui

Saturday

im currently posting out some ads at Job Advertisement ( a group in Brunei ) and amazingly i received so many respond from people who are job hunting. i got like 20+ responds from them, most of them mentioned that they really need the job. Perhaps they just wanted a job to pay off their debts. and im making a mistake as well to get them to the interview, as the people that im really looking for are people who truly wanted to improve themselves and willing to learn. perhaps i made some assumptions but i really wanted to help them to improve grow and improve themselves. Being Violet? its unleashing. HAHA.


im being blessed, i had such great opportunity to have so many love in life. thanks. :)


This day, the universe showed me something. Something that i like, actually had their eyes on something else. its a MESSAGE? trying to understand. But He matters no more, :) because i have more to think.


thanks to my friend from miri, we had an awesome time. well i had an awesome time, with them at Pizza Hut :) thanks :) and her mom actually said she likes my energy. wow, thanks :)


One of the Brother had some problem so it kinda caught my attention and i really do want to help. but what can i do ? " im just a kid" is what i always had in mind but BigFish always tell me not to think that way. 


what can a SUPER 10 do at this moment?

Such a Mess, but shit happens. so who else to blame?
having over overtime for the past 2 days and now im doing tours in the morning again because my colleague run late to work.Great ! but what else can i say ? complaining is useless and so not productive at all.

A half day was given when i requested for an full offday. geez mama, its like no one see that im doing over over night tour from 5am working till 8pm in the night.

a day w two pokes -.-

i woke up late but i managed to reach airport on time. Melbourne flight which was suppose to be landed at 5:40am has been delayed to 9:40am and the earliest flight is 9am. it was too late when my boss asked us to come to work at 7am because we re already in the airport. (haha)

me and my team took a short nap and start finish up our paperworks. esp me  cause i had tons of paperwork to be done. oops.

i dont have much sign of redness. but they appeared when the enemy took my client away from me by telling lies to them. but eventually i failed to get him back because they offered a very cheap package with better itinerary. i was red! other intention started to filled in my mind, im going to get them back! but im still pissed, taking deep breath and stretches my arms to calm my self down. i had to pour these out so conveniently whatsapp sophia and she advised me to hug a tree which shifted my thoughts and energy. HAHA!

and another moment is when -.-' my mate actually tries not to do much and pushes all work load unto me. and talk to me w unpleasant tone - i walked away but geez' i dont feel good perhaps i need to find a new technique to overcome this.

im all around browsing a new app for my iphone 4. everysince i started to read others blog it influence me to blog as well. haha , crystal? :) i downloaded 'blogpress' with a cost of $2.99 and obviously im not satisfied with it. theres one app that seems to be the best for bloggers but it cost $9.99 ouch * :) to download that - it will take me more than just second thoughts. (wide smile) but in the end i downloaded this app from itunes ' im using it right now for this post. i find it quite satisfying :) #happy.

facebook facebook, geez im not too social at the moment. i almost completely abandon my facebook account. just mantaining the new one for my group, normally would be on twitter because its simple and fast. i was addicted to instangram but its just a one / two days thing and i kinda lost the interest. but haha i'll be back 

i wanted to take off on tues but my team is taking her annual leave so i could only avail tomorrows half day. :U but i booked my offday on 3rd jul in advance  thats a must! haha. much said. be off awhile.

much love. ruiyee

RelationShit?

My friend asked me "why didnt you go online?" i think she kinda meant me not on MSN.
which err. well, cause i think someone hacked my acc so i lost all my contacts and now im lazy to use it already. so, anyway my friend had some "relationshit" problem so she asked me to online. i kinda agreed and when i tried to go online, OMG ! i tried almost everything but i cant access it. (i lost my password) HAHA.


Lols, and im kinda like. oh, thats not my social network type. (haha)


truly relationshit! (forget about that) `


Big Guy might not be joining is for the next journey, which is quite a heartbreak to know. im quite happy when he called and greeted me "Super 10!" how i wish we could sort something out and help him. but he insisted not to accept any of our help but rather telling himself to accept the fact that his not going w us this time. His sad as well, but geez. but stay positive. :)





Check those smiles out, snapped by @omgitsrui :)


i was doing a night tour just now, well my team did 2 tours so i decided to work overtime.
working from 5am till 8:30pm ? well, call me a SUPERMAHN alright. :)


i just bought the law of attraction and its quite interesting, really but the topic is not deep enough. Haha, anwyways. im gonna be away soon because i have a friend calling SOS !


cheers,
humbly His,
ruiyee

smile :)

oh boyy am i thrilled :)

well, tho my mentor was quite dissapointed he still official announce that i'll be continuing my journey. and i had real Fun :) my class was the Bomb ! awesome :)

but after that i haven got the chance to meet my mentor nor have i heard any news from him :o his still my mentor whatt :) - 

silly moments;
i was late the first day of work and my boss was very dissapointed that she intended to complain to bigfish  but i choosed to be positive and do my best. so the universe kinda responded  cause boss called and asked me not to be neg and be a 10!

days later, i think the aligned because my boss decided to let me back incharge and she intende to leave it all to me. which wow' awesome but im still a kid and bigfish always highlight that i should say that. 

today is like one of the best and worst crazy day. 
haha, had tons of sales, tons of people but omg! the problem is like omg! but stay positive :)

its quite sad when big guy announced that he may not join the next journey, got most of our heart feeling not continuing as well. i wonders whats going to happen next but either way, i cant wait for the beach gathering :)

think im getting my car soon. omg! i kinda forget todays date. 22 and mama said i maybe getting new ride on the 28th which i intended to take my offday. :) i need a day off to watch all the movie series i bought. (hehe)

im quite dissapointed about RBA deciding to suspend 5 important flights on oct. that crazy okay because who else wil be transiting in brunei? 
my job is to promote brunei but now that these flights are going to be cancel, i dont think there would be anyone coming. geez' and for the past weeks, almost 80% of the flight got delay and cancel which is so BAD. as well as brunei didnt successfully display their culture and traditions ' speaking of promoting brunei and having tourism to be the second income. *very dissapointed* 
i hope to see more improvement :O wonders whats brunei tourisms respond about this.  


Humbly His,
love always -rui

smile :)

oh boyy am i thrilled :)

well, tho my mentor was quite dissapointed he still official announce that i'll be continuing my journey. and i had real Fun :) my class was the Bomb ! awesome :)

but after that i haven got the chance to meet my mentor nor have i heard any news from him :o his still my mentor whatt :) - 

silly moments;
i was late the first day of work and my boss was very dissapointed that she intended to complain to bigfish  but i choosed to be positive and do my best. so the universe kinda responded  cause boss called and asked me not to be neg and be a 10!

days later, i think the aligned because my boss decided to let me back incharge and she intende to leave it all to me. which wow' awesome but im still a kid and bigfish always highlight that i should say that. 

today is like one of the best and worst crazy day. 
haha, had tons of sales, tons of people but omg! the problem is like omg! but stay positive :)

its quite sad when big guy announced that he may not join the next journey, got most of our heart feeling not continuing as well. i wonders whats going to happen next but either way, i cant wait for the beach gathering :)

think im getting my car soon. omg! i kinda forget todays date. 22 and mama said i maybe getting new ride on the 28th which i intended to take my offday. :) i need a day off to watch all the movie series i bought. (hehe)

im quite dissapointed about RBA deciding to suspend 5 important flights on oct. that crazy okay because who else wil be transiting in brunei? 
my job is to promote brunei but now that these flights are going to be cancel, i dont think there would be anyone coming. geez' and for the past weeks, almost 80% of the flight got delay and cancel which is so BAD. as well as brunei didnt successfully display their culture and traditions ' speaking of promoting brunei and having tourism to be the second income. *very dissapointed* 
i hope to see more improvement :O wonders whats brunei tourisms respond about this.  


Humbly His,
love always -rui


Humbly His,
love always -rui

dip myself into a pot of troubles,

boy am i worried, im nervous as described by my mentor because i clearly haven received the warning letter what shall by post by me tomorrow.


i thought i was doing it right, when i got the team together to realize our faults/mistakes and  we talked about ways to fix it. but unfortunately my action had situating myself into a new obstacle to overcome. i clearly show huge disappointment towards my mentor, and within split second he decided that the company shall send me a letter of 'warning' . 


Both of team got letters of praise but mine is the alternative. i was surprised and honestly, i didnt really believe what i've just heard. i was giving excuses that i wasnt certain of my position as a leader there, because my senior wasnt satisfy with me as a leader and she suggested that let there be no leader, but all as a team. so i didnt took the responsibility seriously, but for my decision had cause dissapointment and result myself to be dipped into this shit.


i sent a message of apology and there was no respond at all.
i then took the courage to give it another try, but then i responded in a way that i felt pretty much guilty upon for what i did. and now that im leaving for a course very soon, i wont have much time with my teammates in helping them organizing a better way to work. well my senior on the other hand is a pure slacker, omg! cause just by taking a day off today, i received all the bad reports of how she's taking care of the place. and i had to asked my bro to take good care of the place tho his the new boy. 


anyways, what im trying to ask myself is. what im trying to show when i sent the message? i wanted to make things right, because i didnt made it before. i dont want to show a sign of incapability. i want take that trust back from my mentor and my boss as well, i know there's alot of dissapointment. and geez' 


i really need to start off right starting on MONDAY.
so world! wish me luck :)


i met sham and mark just now. and ohh sorry that i wasnt on time mark.
but anyway, we sent the order for the shirt with quite a good price. $16 each LOLS.
Great! hoping it be done soon before sunday.


Godbless all.
Humbly His,
ruiyee