my love for you - (;

Hello Friday, - 
the last Friday in 2011. (;


Life has been Great, learning more and more about relationships. (': being with him is Fun - it's funny how life brought us together and Glued us together so tightly. his like the peanut and im like the butter - always together ! :D


There's always up and downs in a relationship - the ups are all the crazy, lovely, sweet, touching, memorable moments whereas the down part sounds quite dark. But truly the down moments within a relationship are actually more wonderful because through those moments  we learn to forgive all the wrong doings, we learn to forget the past, we learn to accept one another for who they are, we learn to take a step back, we now understand that it's okay to be wrong and that we don't always have to be right, we learn that sometimes - we need to let go part of our ego, rather lose an argument than lose someone important in life. Just as if we can foresee that all the down moments are just a process of knowing more about one another, most importantly understand them and fully accept them for who they are. and thank you love (hidayat) - because you taught me all of this. 
(; Moreover, i learned to be a better person - sampai learning to buat kerja rumah sama sayang sudah ne - ohlalala ~` 


 tho His my first but im not counting numbers at all. For Me, - i'm having a relationship with him, whereas in this is a relationship that i want to make it work, a relationship that i dont want to end, a relationship that is worth fighting for, i would choose to lose an argument, drop my ego but i just dont want to lose you. because i love you. and i dont mind what kind of life we'll be living as long as we're always always always happy together. even spending time with you always at home, it's all very simple but full of happiness that lighten up in my heart. 


i love you, and i will always love you - always always be loving you.
if one day i run away, find me - hug me tight and don't let go. lau pun hati ku keras, tapi dah di lembutkan leh sayang. so if someday aku keraskan hati ku lagi, sayang shja yang dapat lembutkan - i don't want anyone else, just you please. (;

hope we can do the best for this love we have together sayang.

i love you, truly deeply. (':

diqtasmers <3 always always always be loving you.

29th Dec 2011

Hello today is thursday laa ~ :D
and i thought it was Friday (; not too bad tho , 29th December. 
New Year is Coming, why hello 2012 ! :D are you excited to have me?


2012 - the year of AWESOME NESS! 


first time - sabar saja
second time - tembak ! :D
*dead* ohlalala ~


Morning world, Morning Sayang :D
time spend with my love is countless now. Basically spending every moments together,
we watched Sherlock Holmes last night and it wasn't a bad movie. Not too BAD ! :D


Yesterday was AYAMKU DAY ! :D









Life moves on, keep the faith.
for you, i will learn to be stronger and stronger and Stronger ! (;
i wont let you go. (;


will always keep this blog updated, wherever i am.
every momento, you're in my heart. [locked] 


to my love Hidayat Kms.
do want to spend new year eve with you. but if your busy sayang, be busy (;
follow your heart. smile ﺕ

i'll just wait for you. <3

Another day of boredom, so it's Brother Fuad's last day tomorrow. (;

not too sad now because.. we'll we're still close, no matter how long it takes, we're still the same. :D 

next month ain gonna be the same ne more.

it's gonna be a whole new challange for us. but who cares? :D 

baby, i love you deeply.

#off to work. hugs*

truly yours

ruiyee. 

smile ﺕ

suddenly im addicted to this song. (;

"A Thousand Years"

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

another Tuesday

Hello Readers,

How's life treating you? Life has been great on my side tho some may disagree the path that i've choosen, many may have predicted this path that i've choosen, and the rest of them have been great friends and family who supported whichever path that i am in without judging me. [ thanks (': ]

Everyone have their own path in life, whichever path that i've choosen. 

i decided to do my best to make this work - (:

It was a Great Morning, no matter what. it's always lovely to see the same face every morning before work, or before my day even starts. (; 

My life has no longer contain ME - it's BOTH of US (;

few days ago, while i was sitting in the kitchen simply watching him cooking.

suddenly, i burst into laughters within me filled with undesribeable Joy. Because all this while, i always thought about what type of guy i would like to have.. and i didnt realize that this person right infront of me has everything that i've always dreamed of having. (; the way he love me, the way he cares for me, his heart and ...

how's life? (;

Life has been well, i feel blessed. the people around me, and the unconditional love that was given. There's something i need to re think again.. "how do i want to live this life" (; - 

DADDY asked me a Question just now ' is your life filled with happiness now, are you happy? ' - he (my love) was in my mind, thinking that his now in my life - i answered my dad ' YES, i am ' (;

' where am i now? '

New year is COMING.

i dont have a new year resolution - :D

just want to live a happier life, filled with more awesome ness and smiles with my love, his family, my family, mr brothers and sisters.

be more Awesome, and that everlasting SMILE stuck on my face - filling people's life with Joy again and again and again <3 - that's ME

Lunch with my Love and his family just now. (;

thanks Love for ordering my Food. <3 

Missed you.

be safe now. see you soon.

Thanks for reading  

truly yours

ruiyee - Diqtasmers <3

hello tuesday

Morning world, another day has come.

it's TUESDAY ! <3 Thank God for a holiday on Monday where there's more time to spend w my love. (;

Monday Morning

Morning world!

Merry belated Christmas to all readers ! (;

early in the morning, not that early but yeah, in the morning ..

went to buy some vegetable with my love <3

His car - (;   (so sweet)

Great wall's new released car? look like wolverine ! :D RUGGED to the MAX <3

My Love, <3

NIXON D5100

when i'm w him - MAKAN MAKAN MAKAN MAKAN saja ;D

craving for this <3 cheese cake lover.


Thankyou, Love -
Another Weekend with you (; <3

#to be continued

Last Night.

It's the Most Beautiful Time of the year <3 





It was indeed great to see sister yanshiang, and she seems to be more excited than i am. :) 
She picked me up from my car because i didn't have an umbrella and we had a short catch up before going inside Larry's place. we talked about, - her concern about my relationship. i know she's worried, she's just being a lovely sister who cares for me. appreciate all the advise, ;) i have all those thoughts few years back already, .. but other than that we talked about other thing as well. She Got me Christmas Gift, a Big Cute Hugable Teddy Bear and a lovely calender <3 (so sweet) 


it was a great night when love just touches me without me noticing them.
Because .. Sister Annie prepared me a Gift, (unexpected) and before i left, i got a hug from yan's mom - she called me her little daughter. ;') thanks for all the loves people.


Yesterday, due to alot of things that i've gone through.. there's alot of thoughts that came across my mind. (; - alot of things to learn, letting go of my ego, be more patient, understanding, trusting more and more - grow grow grow (; so yea, i'm doing my best to learn.


i'm Glad actually because my love was having one of his Bad Days, he didn't plan to meet but in the end we did. and He brought a Wide Smile back home <3 thanks Love, for being happy all over again. Hope all is well for you. :3 Lembu!
all the sweet funny all over again, where we actually said the same thing coincidencly TWICE. #laughoutloud moments. be safe Now. see you soon. 


thanks for reading.
Endless Summer - the summer that never ends


much love
ruiyee

22th Dec 2011

Morning World. 


Last Night, i was planning to have a rest - online and edit videos but yea.. i was then out to pick up the boys after their interview at RTB. we went to coffee bean, many thanks to my beloved brother for the treat <3 - Mango Vanilla & Beef Lagsana (favourite) 
Then someone spilled my drink - oops* but i had ONE XL Caramel + coffee to replace that. :D *lucky night*? (maybe) drop them off at iffah's place - takecare brothers. :) be Good Now <3


back home, - hello bed, i haven seen you for almost a week now thanks for being Good to me :D *nonsense* lucky no DUST (haha) i can't sleep well, was basically waking up 3-4 times and i had black and white dreams that i can't really remember. finally i wake up at 7:57am when my dad just opened the Door and asked ' dont you have work? it's 8:30am !' which suprised me, and i asked again - 830am ? he said ' if i didnt say that you will never GET OUT OF YOUR BED' well Fair Enough Daddy - you win. :)


reach office at 8.01am :D not too late eh. went to the airport and back office and to airport again. ohboyy :D now i'm back in the office. 


IMAGINE THAT!
seriously, quite bored so i attempt to read some of my old post back in year 2010 ( 2 years ago ) and .. wow, yeaa - i'm a very sentimental person as described by brothers wils and winter bob ( think about winter bob, i haven been contact-ing with him for a long while and i just remembered. he read my blogs too ! totally FORGOTTEN about it. ohlalala ~ hey you. sorry for not be able to help out when you needed it. No idea where in the world are you now but anwyays - just take care wherever you are and keep that smile ON always #smilealltheway . also thanks for everything :) ) Okay - back to the point. AND as i was reading, my OLD POST - well, i enjoy expressing myself through blogging so at times i tried to avoid letting the reader know exactly who am i talking about . Good ONE eys.
But the BAD part is, when i review my OLD POST - i have NO IDEA who am i talking, expressing about :D oh goodie goodie. :) and some parts of the sentences that i was trying to express - #idontgetthemnow. :D 


Thoughts in the MORNING.
This may sound abit offensive but .. i were to witness where this person just couldn't stop swearing about this other person because of some negative comment given. and i was quite suprised because this person attends religious worship almost every week, moreover people around repeatedly told me how good that person is.. (why, thanks) 
Not Judging, - just having thoughts that words coming out of your lips reflects who you are as well. so be very careful of those words because .. it tells something about you. Most importantly, sensoring your words - think about what you've just said and look inside your heart - why did you say those unpleasant things that may/may not hurt others. Be It, if others hurt you - dont be like them because you exactly how it feels.


It's a suprised actually because i received a text from sister yan - she even thanked me for updating my blog. *i wonder why* , she then explained that she was able to know how was i doing. likewise, thanks for reading my blog, thanks for all the concerns as well for that i still matters and your love and care for me are still valid. <3 really appreciate it.
see you later tonight. (:



MISS YOU LEMBU ! ohlalala ~ :D
DIQTASMERS.


thanks for reading,
Endless Summer- the Summer that Never Ends.


truly yours
ruiyee

21th dec 2011

Early in the Morning. I was LATE , but i wasn't worried being late. 
i forgot my office keys and money was left in the house before i went to meet my love last night. ohboy, forgetful much. - and that's all the money i have ! - well lucky i found BND2 somewhere inside my car. :D thanks babyboyy for donating me some money when i need it the most. Because of my low budget, - i had biscuit and milo as my breakfast well, with hugs and kisses as well. we (brother admusa and i) actually bought ourselves a whole tin of JACOB's - weetameal and we finished the whole can in less than 4 days - BISCUIT MONSTER !


Again, today i gained more flexibility in what i used to do. i wasn't doing anything at all here, basically just doing my research as well as facebook-ing, twitter, blogging, reading, GOOGLE-ing . in the Office, only 3 of us are outbound tour leaders + supervisor. So my supervisor is now in KOREA, where as 1 of them has just left for KOREA tour today, and by tomorrow the other one is leaving for TAIWAN (i think) - and my supervisor is coming back today to be picked up by brother admusa in the airport and she's gonna be back on duty by tomorrow. I'm just sitting down and they just called me whenever they need me for instant what does this person's email actually means, what does this chinese word meant in english, doing some scan and that's the most of it. the rest of the time, im on MUSIC - facebook, Google, reading, blablabla and etc.

During Lunch,

oh Lunch, i was planning to stay longer with the computer since most of the people left the office and normally during LUNCH ( 1hr 30mins ) they will lock the office, and before one of my workmate left she said - 'rui, just switch off the lights and lock the door if your leaving' - i was being a mess trying to find where did i left my keys ( it was at home ) - less than 10mins just when the other guy in the office is still stuck with the computer i just left so other can lock the door instead - phew* (;


Suprisingly Dad was at home, i wonder where's his station wagon :D cause it's missing, his using APV. #sleeping - i had a weird weird dream, I dream my blood related Brother Joel.Siong driving my sportage on the wrong side of the road near kiulap and i was screaming inside the car. kinda screw him up abit in the car, took the wheels and i basically ignored other drivers even i scratched their cars. Even when one Huge Truck was beside me feeling unsatisfied because i scratched their vehicle, i didn't even bothered. #weird.
Next Moment, i was getting ready for work and this IPHONE 4 8GB appeared right on the mirror table and the QUESTION in my mind was why didn't i use the iphone 4 8GB instead of what i'm using now. ( precisely 8GB ) weird# soweird# totallyweird# absolutelyweird#


then i woke up realize it's already 2.03pm ! Late for work AGAIN!

blogged so muched?

well, i haven been bloggin as much - i was again INSPIRED by what i've read.
visited rano and xiaxue - yea, inspired. :)

Missing my Love -

His went back KB this morning, thankyou for driving safe and reached your destination safetly. :) Missing Him Loads, but he needs his rest so when i rest this afternoon at about 1230hr and he just rest until now - or even later. basically we're gonna contact lesser and lesser - ohboyy, missing you much. :D but may the love remain strong <3
Moments after Moments, im missing you. thinking about you is like imagining you sleeping, - you can really SLEEP cause until now you haven replied me. :)

Restless Night - 

was planning to just Online, edit some video.
but who can say NO to my cute little brother fyzan who asked me to send them to RTB later on ? Check out NQB crew tonight, tune in to PELANGI FM ! ;)


Tomorrow Night, going out w sister Yan
Fri Night, observe the crew's training
Sat * if he comes back - imma spend time with him but MIDNIGHT, the boys might need a lift. :D
Sunday Night - oh Christmas. <3

while driving

i was being extra cautious while driving to Qlap to pick something up for my workmate.

they say "expect the unexpected"

how could that be possible because it would still be something you never expected. :D but anyways, imma pass by Qlap again if im sending the boys to RTB later. so pray pray pray ! :D


 Special thanks - 
Jenlih (co-worker) got me something from Korea.
Annie (co-worker) got us goodies from Korea.
YanShiang (sister) travel and prepared me a Christmas Gift, that's very lovely of you.
Sophia (sister aka SUPER "S") appreciate it actually, tho we kinda lose contact and knowing each other less than a year but you got me a Gift out of no where. thanks 


Friends like Family.
Everyone is like a Family for me, if i know you and we have this short connection - you'd be considered as my family already :D i would categorized Friends as my not well connected, Hi-Bye friend, someone i used to know. Someone i cared, and no matter how much it is, as long you matters - you're like a brother/sister for me. Well, of course - there's different Level's of brothers and sisters. Tho there are a lot that i used to be so close with now we just seldom contact, doesn't mean that i need to contact them and hang out with them. i just like to go with the Flow and i enjoyed where i am now, when the time comes - the universe will bring us together again but right now - where i am now is where i suppose to be so no need to get other people back into my life. we'll get there. After all, i like it slow ~ i remember times when i need to rush to 3,4,5 events in the night just to meet up all the group of friends i have is totally tiring :D thank God now it's SLOW ~ just enjoying the moment, when i have time i meet my friends, hangout - when my love is around i prefer to spend more time with him because his not always around so i 'choose' to be with him when his near but i also meet my friends when his back in town as well - just that i can't hangout till midnight late that's all. and when his busy for work, that's when i would spend more time with others.


thanks for reading.
endless summer - the summer that never ends


truly yours
ruiyee.

21th Dec 2011

____DiqtaSmers____

ohlala ~

i miss you sayang. :D don't know how to leave you.

because we basically did almost everything together already.

sweeet moments - * Brushing Teeth together * awww ~ so sweeet.

LEMBU ! :) ♥

so sayang is on his way back to KB for work.

Be safe sayang. see you this weekend again - YES? :)

a week with you & a week without you. :D

we really DID spend the whole week together.

so closely together. ♥ i love you.

thanks again for spending the whole week, sweet sweet moments, sasak moments, crazy moments, laugh out loud moments. :D every momento ♥ 

_________________________________________________________________

Countdowns - 4 more days till christmas

                 - 10 more days till new year

                 - 19 more days till that awesome fly fly day w brother Kyz. 

           

ohlala ~ dont forget rui - YGS ! (;

  DUB ♥

Love is in the Air ♥

KYZ's♥

My ♥

 LovethisConcept.

Sticker BOMB♥

ENDLESS SUMMER

the summer that never ends.

my new tittle. :D

19th Dec 2011

Being Right? What am i trying to Prove?

Sometimes, we dont need to do so too much just to show that we're better than others. (;

Just Simply be yourself, carry that SMILE on your Face. 

#thatsallyouneed. <3

i dont want to be Right, just want to be ME.

_____________________________itsruismers____________________________

#mustwatchvideo.

Life is More than Just 'Awesome'

inspiring much? Not really :D cause i already knew what this video is all about.

but be motivated to help others ayte. :D & appreciate those who helped you. 

follow your heart when you do things.

* BIAR IKHLAS* :D

___________________________itsruismers__________________________

____the whole week with my love____

i spend the whole week with my love.

every momento with him, is wonderful. :)

words can't describe how i feel when i'm with him.

dear love, thanks for smilling most of the time -

for laughing out loud, for being so caring, so loveable, so CUTE x3

for being so authentic - 

love you for who you are, don't worry - just follow your heart and keep the Faith.

i really really enjoyed my everyday being with you.

i'm always counting the time to pass, my real day starts when i'm with you. (;

that's when i start to slow myself down and enjoy the momento being with you.

your gonna be away soon - it's Gonna be so different without you because we spend almost everytime together. 

when i'm with you, it feels like there's no one else in this world.

Just you.

so i don't mind whose/what's around me.

all i know is you right beside me and you have my full attention.

i'm Gonna miss the way you hold my hand,

the way you look at me and smile,

the way you laugh,

the way you tease me,

the way you care for me,

the way you hold me,

the way you love me.

imma miss all of that.

do take good care wherever you are.

be safe always.

______________________________itsruismers_____________________________

Fine day, nothing much.

sophia texted but i haven replied. MyMy, My super 10 in my life is slowly fading away.

My 99th group, how are you guys doing?

the fact that i haven able to meet my old boss, *fear?*

God bless my brother AdMusa's relationship ! (;

Oh, what i did yesterday. Video DRC - a short footage.

after that went to watch movie with my love. <3

#sleepy.

Much Love

DiqtaSmers

People i can't aford to Lose!

you matter way way too MUCH.♥

Kyz Kazuya
met you on 28th November 2009
someone i never want to lose, my beloved brother, my family <3
the Guy with a Lovely Heart.
thanks for everything, kyz - i love you.♥

My Love - Diqtaone

Hidayat Kmsmet you on 13th November 2011

May he be my First and my Last <3

the sweetest person on earth.

i love how he loves me <3

love his heart for me.

love everything about you, the best Gift on earth is you.

i dont want to lose you, <3 - i love you so so much ! ♥

19th Dec 2011

#AfterNoon World. (;


Spend a good weekend with my love, the way we're together feels like we've been together for years ! :D 


Congrats to my Beloved Brother Kyz - for winning the freestyle solo competition at Pusat Belia. Awesome Support from his Family, crew and Friends <3 NQB crew was Amazing Last Night, they're performance is getting better and better. - Fantastic 8 ! 
#proudofthem ! pray that they keep their hearts together, dream do come true.


A nice momento with my love's family when my love is not around. (;


#feeling sleepy, - 
work has been fine. more on paperworks and operation to be done, what im more excited is to travel :D hopefully Bangkok Spree ( SHOPPING !) 
ohlala ~ travelling with Kyz to Kuala Lumpur soon next month ! meeting my old bestfriend ZUN <3 - can't wait.


ohlalala ~ wanna spend new year with my love.
even if we have nothing to do, i dont mind. just wanna be by your side. 


Tonight - Meeting Sister Yan, then Off to Video the VJ crew. :D
and imma be w my love again. 


much love.
sleeeeep <3

Talk of the Town

Not really a Busy day. Spent my afternoon helping the battle with one of my junior - Goh Teck, thanks for helping out. :D Congrats to Pes for winning First Prize ! (; and congrats to NQB crew as well for getting the 3rd place even after a tiring performance in the morning @ airport mall, later night brother Kyz is competing another battle and NQB crew is having an opening performance too. a busy busy holiday for NQB crews (;


talk of the town.
since it's been publicized, i must be ready the outcome. (;
Goodluck ! :D

Another day with you.

I missed how i used to blog. (; so now i'm back :D


Working half day today - it's a Saturday ! <3 ohlalala ~ 
we went over to berakas together to get babyboyy (;
After work, a day spend with the boys - a Mission to Complete! :D
went all the way to Tutong, helping one of my monkey species to find his love. (;
just glad that his back ' welcome back AMBOK ! (; - keep that crazy mode on. *smile*
meanwhile, Brother Kyz, Allies, Shah and i went to Pantai Seri Kenangan @ tutong. Thanks my brother for treating me roti john and drink. (;


Had a Nap before going Out again, during the Night - went out with my Love to pick up Brother Kyz and we had dinner @ KFC kiulap. (; - went to Pusat Belia to register Street Dance ! :D ohh boyy ; a busy busy day for them tomorroww. :D cause performance in the morning, battle in the afternoon and street dance during the night. Goodluck*


a Good Good Night <3 tho something bad happened. :O but i dont wanna talk about it here. talk about it else where. :D


oh, the same time.. my sister called me yesterday while i was at work.
i know she's worried, worried that i dont know what i'm doing. well, i DO! (; and i know how fast words and worries can spread, and honestly as i imagine that if many people start to make this like it's like a big deal and start calling me out. it will totally freak me out and ... you'll know what happened next. (;


 so dear friends, i love you - respect my decision as i respect you. life is short, i live my life to the fullest my own way - don't think that you'll be able to control and make me live the life you want. because this is my Life. (: 
Let's just enjoy the moment, do what is within the line - dont cross the line <3


GOODLUCK to the Boys for their Performance Later.
off to LeSwan later, Goodluck Bboys for the Competition later.
& night - a NIGHT OUT WITH the 3 MUSKETEERS <3


Much Love

17th Dec 2011

New Year is Coming (; - Say ByeBye to 2011 and Holla 2012.! (;

There's something i'm looking for - looked around his blog for that one missing post.

so far, i can't find it yet. (; - perhaps someday it will appear again. 

back in 2nd december 2009.

met you 28th November 2009. 

more than 2 years now, reading my old post - 

i remember you, how we used to be. how less time we both had together, now that our relationship has grow stronger and stronger but your life now is like vice versa of mine. (;

Time when you called - i was at saloon. you talked about your Godbrother.

you came over to my house for help.

meeting at the Mall, 2 years ago.

we hung out ( picture above)

your invite for sungkai last year that i didnt show up.

you were waiting.. waiting.. waiting.. 

thank God that i've spent more time with you.

but thanks ! for loving me - ever since. (;

to my beloved brother

kyz kazuya

you will always be loved.

my brah, my bestfriend, my b**** - admusa

Sebenarnya tak sampai hati kan let you go, but i know i have to. if you leave, this time i can't be there with you. paksa tane seperate dah ne, i guess laupun tane dah jarang gila2 and ko jarang can show your care rah aku but i know deep down you do. And lau ko inda kerja disini dahulu maybe aku akan lebih ragu adakah pilihan ini terbaik untuk ku, tetapi kerna aku tau you're there- i feel more safe to choose where i am today. thankyou for always been a guardian brother! :D

thanks always for loving and accepting me for who i am too (;  where ever you go, i know you'll SHINE! this has been tested too many times, your definitely one lucky b**** ! (;

i guess it's almost a year that i've known you.

the Crazy moments we used to have before arah Sunshine, thanks for ALL ! (; wanna show my appreciation before it's too late.

will always remember the night, where we were having conversation between you, diza and myself at a restaurant time tengah malam. may the 3 Musketeers 's relationship stay long and everlasting <3

- my bestfriend, my brah, my b**** !

AdMusa.