Merry Christmas to everyone! :)
Time flies, another Christmas has come.. i hardly recalls what i did last year, but im pretty sure i was working that time, and did attend some activities. Just some,.. :) but this year, i guess i am not attending any.. * complicated * :')
But anyways , i prayed for an amazing Christmas celebration to those whose celebrating. :) Joy to the world! :) May God Bless us all! :)
' i somehow wonders what's the next november is going to be like. I wonders about what my life is going to be like after this, would i be living the life that i always dreamed of? Or i'd still be the same? Or it'd be worst? People says that the future is in our hands, cause we are the one who choose what we want, we are the one who decides and we can change our destiny.
Sometimes i hate how emotions works, and it sucks sometimes when i don't know how to handle my own emotions and screw everything up. And sometimes, i hate the way i am, and caught myself thinking that why am i like this? Cause sometimes it's just so inappropriate, but it's already a part of who i am. And it's up to ME to change, if i choose to change but i'm always afraid of changing, i'm afraid of 'changes' but at times, i just need to learn how to accept and let go.
Since when i became a turtle hiding inside a shell?
After asking myself, i guess it's because i dislike confrontation alot & i dislike people talking about things i don't want to talk about. I felt that people around me constantly tells me what is right and what is wrong but i'm just the type of person who never listens because i simply chooses and decides what i believes in and what i wanted for my life, sometimes the outcome wasn't too satisfying but then we just need to accept it & get along with it.
Perhaps , i made the choices that is quite unexpected and out of most people's expectation. That's when people couldn't digest it well & start giving out negative energies and pushes me away. In the end, this is just part of my journey in life.. & for other, it's just not really a problem actually cause it's not your problem - this is about me & my life. I guess what's important is that we cherish every moment possible & create magical moments as life has many unexpected events. We can never predict what's next and we can never be sure that we're gonna live long .. anything can happen in any moment in our life, unexpected even when we're not ready for it. (':
Truly yours,
ruiyee
