april '11

simply too good to be true.

your words are too sweet and it took me into concern whether are those just 'words' -

hello readers,

its april ! im at work and theres not much of an april fool experience here. i wonders how the others would be, how about school? anyone fooling anyone ? :)

this would be my 6th month working and this has been the longest period so far cause i haven worked in a place for such a long duration. well, so far so good. i'm glad my teams are happy w their work as well :D
hoped we'd be growing stronger in team :)

we achieved our target for last month and our boss is treating us dinner :) @ shabu shabu :D

' talk about life '

at first , i kept going on looking for someone like someone that i'd be spending the rest of my life with. but so far , he hasnt appear anywhere yet. i used to thought about my life's purpose or so. but today im just here working and waiting for something to appear :)

right now im blessed with friends, loving brother and a good job. i also have a mentor :D he gave an awesome gift that i dont know who on earth would ever give me such :) thanks brother, friends, mentor and God.











days is passing by, i just hope that i wont miss a thing :) -

im getting fatt' God please lose my weight :D gym has been fine, to the fact that im not into classes much anymore, its like a 'change' perhaps - and i haven seen him ever since im bak! ' do you wanna see him?' - i think its better that we dont :')

pray for good years, month, days to come :) -
i love His love. thank God for all and everything.

howdy world.

they say im good at digging. i think its quite true, despite someone had pour his/her heart out that night. reminds me that perhaps im not bad at it :D

so what it means when people shares their inner thoughts or inner feelings? because they needed some help or they simply just want someone to hear them out :) im not quite sure about this statement :D

i had a great day last night w someone. the time and crazy talk that we had, but his just a brother and nothing more that than. but we liked each other so wtf?

work has been well if salary is popping high. well the world is very realistic i guess so am i. :) i enjoyed what i do w the people around me. and err the love and care sometimes just kinda challange me to ask them 'why'?

why do you love me and why do you care.
sincere? i hope so. cause you seems to be flowing away from me. come backk?


Humbly His,
love always -ruiyee

21st wonders

hello world.

ive just return from an awesome trip to ulu2 temburong with melaine as my guide and four other guest. it was a must do experience up there. it was so awesome when we're up in the canopy. that very moment, its like im actually on top of the world. well, many thanks for those who arranged me to be there yesterday :)

today im back at work. and i wonders how much has work been missing me :)

its not about the moon or cycle or season. but im just not being myself, i felt naughty and i thought of ignoring consequences. but angels always reminds who i really am and that im not allowed to do so. thanks angel :)

how much do you loves me :)

something is wrong with me and i gotta know whats going on. today my motivation wasnt right, i made a mistake and had the opponent wins it all. i kept my self silent because i wanted to avoid questions from my boss. but i know it was a fault that i shouldnt repeat it, perhaps my offday pattern isnt a good way. having 3 offday in a week had installed the 'slack' program in my attitude.
after my offday tomorrow, i need to start over again. had to be more responsibilty :) don blame it on the team rui, blame yourself. :)

dear boy, i saw you today :) you had my heartbeat to dance in an undescribeable way. but its a shame that you dont feel the way i do. who am i to you? im just a little doll that you'd love to have around but you were never in love w me.

whose in my mind? i thought about you occasionally. but truth is, i haven seen you in 11months. where have you been, how have you been? would you still love me the same when you first met me? have you placed me in the same position in your heart right before i left?
time had never stop running and the new page of our story is getting closer and closer. im just wondering- how would the new topic starts :)
i had your stuffs w me. but i lost the way my heartbeat would always be when you were w me. i love your love and your care. you were there when i dont even know i needed someone. you were someone i could never had but your always right beside me. you were the reason more love came into my life. :) dear brother, i missed you.

im thinking ahead and i visioned you w me. could our love story ever be perfectly fit in my fairy tales.

i want to know , who am i to you. what could i possibly mean to you :)


Humbly His,
love always -rui

hello world.

last night was freakin tired. i was having migrant and it feels to me that work is literally breaking my head. but i know i need to have a good night to blast my next day.

in the night, me and the boys watched 'rango' at the empire and its freakin cool ! :) i cant wait to catch the next movie marathon w the boys.

world , my brother is havin trouble cause he hardly smile. tho he said his fine but within him is quite empty. we spend the night together last night, sitting in the car as he pour his feelings out.
he said' we're both two different people because of the way we were individually brought up and he also strongly believe that i wouldnt understand the pressure his doing through because im still too young. but i think what he really needs is God, he needs someone to count on, believe in and have hope for. :) his been on his own quite sometime now, i guess he needs to rest in God's arm because under his arm is comfortness, love, joy as well as peace. his heart needs a break and only God can heal. so please pray for my brother :)

when he differenciate us, i wonders maybe we're different because i have God in my life and i put my trust unto Him. and i shall believe in Him alone :)

i had a fine day :) i had almost many things not because i asked for it but there were all given :D so Pops, thanks for all the blessed love :).

my boss ain happy today when she supervised the way we rock the place here. she announce that a meeting will be held later on, i just felt sorry by the way things are now. and i hope she will be alright. hope she's not working too hard. Godbless her.

im still waiting that someone who shall spend the rest of my life with will appear soooon ! cant wait cant wait and why in the world haven he reached here :) God give me an answer soon please. ^^


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what im having now

dear world, readers, viewers, passerbys, stalkers or whoever you are. greetings to you :)

today was a day like no other. im having a time of my life now, spending time with bunches of boys like my brothers and they got my back so its pretty cool.

i was confused by the love and care my brother is giving me, i hoped he would just had me as a sister and no other. so we kinda clear things out, just being glad cause things get better now between us. but times i just love his love :)

i dont know where s my heart now. isit all over the big guy, the coming soon guy or the guy just right beside me. im feeling good now , and i just hope i'll be goood till the right person shows up :)

i kinda loved what i have now but fear does hunts me sometimes when having the thoughts of losing these. :) perhaps, always have faith will help. thank God for whats given. i've been loved and blessed. :D

things that fill butterflies in my tummy.
im hoping to go to gym tomorrow. but what im going to do there?
im just getting back to somewhere and i m just being worried about the feedback. guess i need to pray hard. :)

i didnt go to yf like how i always wanted to.
my sister and i got further ever since she placed her family first. im not saying its wrong, its perfectly right. just that , things has changed and i know cause she never called me 'sister' eversince. she used to be very close to me and now, we're just somewhere unknown. just pray for all the best for her :) she used to be someone i wouldnt wanna be without but time and God had showed me that things i used to have doesnt really belongs to me. everything is from Him. so God , thank you for the love ! im in a perfect place cause i loved it. :)

love ruiyee

been loved

hey world.

i dont understand you, i really have no idea about what your about - world.

because this moment you had me in a place where i've been fully blessed. but im afraid that i may fall too hard again. perhaps, this is when i had to put my trust and believe in You.

day 11th of March, i finally went back to gym. on the way back, my tummy was filled with butterflies :) back at gym, i was well regconized to gained so much weight. going back to gym, does reminds me of the past times. going back to gym, i wonders whats the story after. :)

things has been changing, slowly. im not sure whether this is for the best/worst but all i know is that i need to believe and learn to put my trust in Him. :)

sometimes, i wonders who i am. i get lonely sometime feeling like i have nothing in this world. and sometimes, the world makes me felt so blessed. love comes from Him :) am i so happy because of what happened last night :D it shows that he cares even a little. but there was no romantic signs, so bro ! whats this :D

my brother is weird cause one moment he loves me loads, next moment he get annoyed by me. makes me thinks whats the real reason behind his care and love. is this love real my brother? i hope its because your heart sees me but not other icon because im nothing but just me. and if you love others icon then you loved the wrong person :)

im just being happy right now and yes i felt so loved and YES! i do not wish my posts ahead would be contented with miserable expression. :D lols. but everything that happened, thank GOD because its all because of Him. so dear God, thank you every special care and love that you had placed upon my life, many thing happens ans i thank you that you gaved me so kuch joy and laughter. i felt so loved and nothing can make it happen but you. :)

my GOd is awesome ! <3

love, ruiyee

*finally after 1 year im back at gym :D


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hey world

hello world.

what do you have for me. day 4 of march, the 4th day without my brother here at work with me, the 9th day my Godmother has been away.

first few days without my brother, things has really changed when i had to do most the things. the load of work, responsibility, duties he used to have has been passed down to me. so far so good actually, the team and i has been doing good sales, but i know we could have done better if they were more motivated. but it seems like my voice is not effective enough, so im trying to let them to be incharge sometime instead just as they would understand the kind of spirit we need when we are working together.

having dinner tonight with friends :) but unfortunately after my two awesome colleges left, we never had a time together tho i texted and facebooked. they werent very responsive whoch is quite sad and kept me wondering whats going on with them.

the new mates has been cool , we hang out pretty much after work playing pool and we're trying to install new activities soon :)

ive been driving so far, and i actually needed to drive more to be more confident and experienced :) - cause im tired of hearing you saying that i cant! because i do can so please just give me a chance.

i have much paperwork yet to be done. Godmother is coming back later today and i wonder what she had brought for me. i myself cant wait her to be back because i really needed a break from work ! cant wait for my salary to come out as well, lets hold our hands together please and pray its going to be four digits. :D after getting my salary, i cant wait to be back at gym. but then im going back to my history or im restarting a legend?

suddenly im here again wondering about the purpose of my current status. i pray that, it will be revealed soon and pray that im actually on the right track.

thank God for everything because he has richly blessed me. i just want Him to be closer to me :) so i can feel more of His love.

have a good day yourself.
love,ruiyee


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