life is really unpredictable.
recently, i kept thinking about life & again the 'purpose' of being alive, being who i am otherwise who i suppose to be. because day after day it's been quite the same .. what's not the same is the new problem that has entered our life when we're not prepared for it.
I'm somehow quite worried about what's coming, tho at first i was quite excited but after learning some facts, i guess i'd rather run away than facing it. because i dislike confrontation & worst is i hate problems. i'd like to live a quite & happy life otherwise a problematic life made me think more ... thinking about what really matters in life & why am i facing all these problems.
my brothers are going through their teenage life, so uncontrollable .. is that what teenage is all about because i could still remember during my teeen i was doing almost the same thing. going out till late night otherwise overnight somewhere else would be even better because i didn't enjoyed being part of this family. I'm not sure what's in it for them but it seems to me that they're living life w no purpose as well.. just like me? maybe..
sometime i thought life sucks, because daily working & earning money , saving them & what's it for in the end? so i guess, we'd better enjoy life.. the moment, being present * and blablabla*
Life is suppose to be something wonderful, it's suppose to be that way & i hoped that it'd be that way for me. a lost sheep a lost sheep a lost sheeep i am..
i guess i need something exciting in my life. i guess traveling is part of the answer.
otherwise i'd plan to be far far far far far far far far away from here. just disappear
that's me, i am always thinking thinking thinking.. that's why i can be bored otherwise i'd be overthinking..
truly yours,
ruiyee
