Thursday, May 27, 2010

messed up kid. :) jumble thoughts and feelings

Smile :) * click *

well, salary was out early. got it yesterdayy` :)
i'm going back to gym ! soon soon soon !
i haven been eating goood foood because i wanted to control my weight.
Well, i did controlled it but i couldn't manage to lose what i gained last 2 weeks. -______-"
which lead me no choice to get back to gym.
Is this even a excuse so that i can go back ? Well, you see ..... ( long story )


Went to watch Prince of Persia. :)
huhu` so GOOOD ! the ending is great, haha ! didnt even expected that coming.
but yeaa, :) watched with the lovely family. :)


i still wanna watch that mv, with someone :) <3
(why) 
i dunno ;) maybe i haven really moved on, cause i still hang on to it.
-badddd huh-
but i banned myself. ;P i'll get over it soon ! 


Taking a deeep breath *


Why do we let go the things we don't want to lose? and why have i? 
Sometimes, we thought it's the right thing to do ( maybe it really is )
I thought it is, and thats how Pop might have wanted after all those people talking about what should and shouldn't do. Was caught in dilemma at that moment, sometimes we didn't knew what to do and ended up choosing the wrong ones. so have i. :)


It gets weird if i wanted to ....
* the flashback of everything before *


i think i should off this topic. :) banned !*


but i still missed  :P


Next'


i'm not sure about this feeling, Pops !
The past have proven me that i've always been wrong about this point.
Will i be right this time ? Well, i certainly hope not. let me be the kid whose been oversensitive about this subject. it always matters alot to me, and i had to keep it down like i don't give a shit.
This is not how things are suppose to be babe, let us show how we really feel. They're no need to hide and be afraid, Life is too short ! Stop talking bad things which will turned into fake rumors and there you got someone's smile broke.


Life is too short to hide and keep the true feelings within.And so many drama in life For ?
life is too short to talk about unpleasant things about others, get your own life and do something meaningful.
life is too short, to cry and frown and think of all the negatives things. Get out and SMILE (LOL)


i'm saying that probably because i dont want to be what i am not. LOLs.
( related to the past )
i wanna be who i am, but what ? all those shits were poured right to my face ! 


had to leave but Pops pulled it back.
is this a new challenge for me to face and experience? :)
i hope it'll be nice, cause you know that i can afford to break that smile again.


what keep me going, is the future.
cause i painted lovely pictures and there's you.
No matter how far i am, no matter how busy and quiet i am. 
Your always inside my heart, Something i could not let go even i wanted to.
because your came to my life once, and saying i'll forget you is a lie. am just trying to show you that " i've moved on " and by that, doesn't mean i've forgotten you. :)




Today` " i sound like a messed up kid :)
more than that perhaps, because all those jumble thoughts, mixed up feelings.

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