this happiness is killing me.

26.10.2013

This Happiness Is Killing Me ;

Might have you know that "Happiness" is something that i felt was missing  in my life for a long long time, something that i seek for, something that i was always longing for.

Almost 2 years ago, thank God that i found someone to fill this missing piece in my heart. He then became my happiness, the happiness that i am now holding on tightly no matter how many bruise that i've got along the way.. i am still holding on.. not willing to let go..

the road seems to be very unclear now, there's no exact answer because there wasn't any answer here on earth, words from man is not sufficient enough to be an answer. because our 'faith' and 'destiny' is all written by God, and the best thing i could ever do is pray.

let's say one day .. one day, who knows.. maybe.. maybe.. just maybe..

if that ever happens, that i lost that happiness that i am holding on to.. im sure, it would break me apart. yes, it's easy to say this and that but ... my heart would shattered into million pieces.. i guess, i wont be able to handle myself, i would lose myself.. 

what i really really hope for is that, hoping that happiness wont let go of me that easily.. recalling all that we've been through, it was never easy but we were perfect for each other. the wonderful love that we had, i wished to continue that journey of love till whenever. some part of me still believes, still believes that he was still the same person i knew when i first met him. his still that kind hearted boy, that lovely boy whose so wonderful to me.. he wouldnt hurt me :) 

the best i could ever do, is pray.

diqtasmers.
truly, your wife.