Nights world.
This morning, i was still holding on the thought of 'keep going on' ,'do my best', but life is too reality and dont listen to what Jessie J sings because 'Money' do matters at some point for survivor. Babyboyy is just few months old and i need to buy him petrol every once in a while & not long later, he would demand for new shoes(Tyre) and visit the hospital(servicing) .. As a mother of my child i had to think make sure that i'm well enough to take care of him. So, back to the same thoughts - if it's not satisfied enough, im leaving on a jet plane.
I'm now stuck in dilemma, both world actually.
But i believe that i made both decision right ;)
In this situation, i decided to leave because im not well appreciated otherwise i'd be shown already. & moreover, i'll give them options, and if the selection resulted the same then i'm more than sure that i made the right choice.
On the other side, i made this decision because honestly i cant define what's between us as well. And you can only choose to explain your true intention otherwise ignoring it & letting it be will lead you back to square one, you need to start facing your problem and overcome those challenges, or you're life will always always be the Same ;) ( awareness, it's true that's why in the other situation i decided to change or else i'd always be STUCK ! ) - so boy, i's still love to appreciate you for all, unless i understand your true intention you will not hear much from me ;) <3 -Wter
Life is Good, Stop living up at the negative side & start creative more new moments.
Life is short, and i love the night spent with hermanos' because within i see the love & care. Appreciate it, and i pray that you guys are the one to be hermanos de por vida <3 -MW
& i love my bitches - Ad & Dza
Dear Brightness,
First of all, i'd like you thank you ! Before i took off, i'd write letters to everyone. I wanna to thank my Godmother, whom i wont be sure whether would she still take me as one because of what i've decided but i truly admire your love to your childrens. My Mentor, it's been almost a year - well more than already but truly thankyou for the care, i have no idea how did that idea came to you, but for me it's the thoughts that count. So, thankyou for the 18th birthday gift tho it's not fulfilled. BigFish, your trust is wonderful ;) Thank you so much for believing in me so much more than anyone did.
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much love,
itsruismers
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