What am i feeling now?

This is what i am feeling now. (:


Gaara, one of my most fav character.


#honestly, i don't even dare to be excited tho i was utterly excited. but anyhow thanks for giving me all the excitement and shove it off right at my face. if i say i appreciate it then i'm being totally sarcastic. (:


Spending time with the boys has been Great but mostly awesome memories are when we truly express how we feel than shit talk.
Awesome moment was back at the beach and waterfront. i guess water does create some sort of invisible impact.


i just realize that both my brother and boss is coming today same time same flight. i might check them out a while later. (:


What am i feeling now? i'm feeling upset after all that i've gone through, i threw my faith and trust just like that and i am constantly believing that it's gonna be alright but my worth is not shown and i was not well appreciated. things can just bust you off when you do a tiny little mistake over to all the awesome achievements that you've did before.


i wanted to join cvo4 but then, i was arranged to join magic sales instead which totally is not what i wanted. am i trying to guess out what he wanted for me, the plan and the trust he mentioned repeatedly - what is it because i think im getting tired of waiting, patient is not really in my dictionary.
and due to my broken heart for all the love and trust that i give yet not appreciated.
if i were to leave, i wont leave a salt of guilt. but if i were to make that decisions, i truly wont mind as much anymore because it doesnt seems to matter to me already since the trust and love i'm holding on seems to just be an illusion.


no, i dont even want to hear a thing. (: