Right Now.

Malas Mau Melayan Perasaan ini.


Well, this feeling that was developed is slowly fading. This Cute Adorable Boy .. what's wrong?
Perhaps, i should hold back a bit?


If you were to ask where in the world, am i now - i don't really know how life brought me to where i am today. I'm just .. seriously .. i kinda lost my mind .. cause i don't even know what to think or what to worry about.. is this as what they use to call ' living in the moment?'


i think mentor is so far far away from me now. a year ago, (; many thing happens -
everything is temporary, what you have doesn't you own them so cherish.. life is unexpected.
i wonders how things would be like i had the courage to talk to him about something deeper inside. (;


the gangs is now currently in Meow City so what in the world am i waiting for? i know that they loved me, but i also know that they are slowly learning how to let me go.  ~
because i came in a surprise, i did something that was out of their expectation .. and now, they're learning to let go and move on - Good for them (; Because eventually they would need to go trough this obstacle, and as for myself - i too need to learn to let them go and move on with my life. 


No more testing, testing . My notice will be by the end of tomorrow. (: 
and through all that i've Gone through previously i really learn alot and the people around me helped me in realizing more of myself. (: my monkey minds are getting lesser now, .. and i need not find the urgency to explain to another person or let them know the truth eventho they hold the wrong idea of who i am. Because eventually they will know - i Guess the one i can't let go the Most and keep on dancing in my mind is my mentor. (; The Man who stood up and asked me, the One whose always there for me without me knowing, i know how much you cared and that you're learning to be stronger now. and i'm Glad .. thanks for all the love you have for me, i guess the writer has made a full stop for us.. but i hope there's a new chapter after this. (:


something i never did before.
well, i did made soup for .. well my sisters like more than a year ago. But preparing all this that i've did was the very first time and that feeling that i am holding on to as i did my preparation reminds me of how i prepare a Special Gift for someone i really like during his birthday. The old times was more dramatic tho (:
i'm Glad that the result is not too bad, and come to think of it and if you were to ask why am i doing all of this. i'd say - ' im just following my heart' - truth is i don't want to know or think about it yet. (:


i haven been blogging about how i truly feel where i am now because i don't want words to describe it. (: 
i enjoyed, the moments. <3


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dear life,


i currently have no idea where are you bringing me to. Life is just so unexpected and i'm just living life. i just hope every moment is Great, i dont want to hold on to any slight unhappiness that can bother my mood and how i show up (:
May the people around me be true, and authentic - may the people around's me love me for who i am. (:




much love.
*sambung tidor*