about you (:

The Man of My Life.
There's two Man in my life whom  filled in the missing puzzle in me. They were the Perfect Trio in my life - Father, Mother and Brother. Imagine a Family where as i'm like the precious Jade - well loved and taken care of, Father sees me more than anyone else did, Brother is always tehre supporting me from the back and Mother, whose just being herself and love me the way she wants. I'm one of the most luckiest person on earth to be loved by the trio. 


Yesterday after a discussion with my auntie, it's been decided on what i'm going to do.


I spend my time with the Boys.
Just one moment in my thought was -well, normally you said 'good night' before you go to sleep but because the sun rises and somehow the suitable word is ' good morning' - just that one moment i find it quite bliss because i felt like i woke up saying 'morning' to my partner (: (one sweet moment)


and the Mid-Night Talk was Great, -i enjoyed it as we talked a lot, knew more about each other. 
There's this Guy who can't stand the pitch of my voice, keep claiming that i don't have bass. His a Strong Guy , who took so much courage in facing his own fear and he was able to get back in such a short time which is amazing because i never knew anyone could ever do that. Imagine myself, falling into a feeling so deep which i figured it's 'love' and i just hold on to this crazy feeling for a year and it took me almost 10months to totally ignore and get him off my life and thoughts. But This person who had such a long relationship managed to be happier - and i'm really proud of him, can't say really proud yet because i'm more surprised than being Proud. His like Found more light within the Dark, it's amazing ~ .


i adore the way he sings because his a very Good singer, just like his brother he owns a Good Heart just more stubborn :P enjoys staring at him and see how would he reacts to it. Loves the way he got sasak by me because he'll have this funny look on his face which would make me Laugh out loud without realizing that my laughter sting his eardrum again. 


but because of the unstable and uncertain relationship that i believed we're in.
somehow we're constantly trying to stay further .. away from each other. but i guess we haven found the exact way to do that.


it's very lovely of him and honestly i felt very touched when he prepared the bed for me, the chocolate, he knows i always wanted to use the labtop and he didn't mind to borrow me much, and a very lovely background music played. thanks (: awww so sweet ~ (;


he dedicated a very lovely song - and .. i liked that song a lot but sometime i don't really want to play that song tho i like it because it makes me thinks of him. but the first time listening to this song, i felt like i heard his heart talking. (: But now, i dont know what his heart and mind is thinking about.
Let's just say it's a very nice song (;       - Karena Ku Sayang Mu - Dygta




So sad sometime when it seems like i don't even know what is this ..
should i just let go but i don't want to miss a thing, i want to enjoy every moment possible (:
sometimes, i really dont want to know what is this, or think about it. Just want to do and say how i feel but ... have to be responsible for what i said .. so .. (: 


i just want him to know that i really like being with him and spending time with him.
but everything is temporary, tho i am actually afraid the thought of losing him or knowing that our relationship will slowly fade. So .... i don't know (: wait till time tells.


and malas jua me kan think so much :P






Proud.
Proud of my brother kyz .it's like months since i told him about this. But it was totally amazing how he took the courage and voice his heart out. No matter how much he expressed himself, i think it's already Good enough because it's never easy but he did it. Both him and his brother - im proud, they made me proud. apakans :P 
Really proud of you, stay strong and stay authentic. No matter what happen, always realize what you are doing and always be yourself.


and the Boys (: 
why, hello. 


i've taken the role of helping them as well. so (: - have Fun rui.\




to my ambok  :P
 ~ the awkwardness indeed is there. (:
but i loved the way you are, because your funny and cute. tho you said you wanted to know more about me, .. but somehow it is as if .. im so totally interested/in love with you, which is not true so i hope you start acting normal again , and let's have fun like how we knew each other. that's all i want from you, brother  ! (:




much love.
rui .