Saturday, November 5, 2011

Feeling so so mellow


Feeling so so Mellow,

Hello world, 
i'm wondering where on earth did my part time teacher went to, the guy who taught me many new words is now Gone Missing ! I guess i need to call the Cops ;) evil much ! ;D & hey YOU ! do take care yourself wherever you're at. ;) & enjoy life. 
winter.

dear world, 
I feel so mellow because now that i've decided to stay & seems to be i'm not staying for the right reason and it wasn't totally for myself. what the fish am i doing ? i was given abit of the cold treatment by someone i care, even as i tried to get close to him but he just distanced himself to not get connect with me. I know how is he feeling, i know i broke his heart because over the years he took good care of me. there was this moment where i really felt like crying because i recalled the time when he wore the same shirt, i miss that smile he used to have. - BF

What am i doing ? What do i want in life, i set so many promises and intention moments after moments but which one of those were made because of myself? 

" have a deep realization that the sum of all the values, experiences, contribution are the effort, experiences of everyone around you now, and for some even more." - P

i Guess, i'm just a little kid - who do not what do i want in life yet, tho many have set a future plan for me. but is that what i truly wanted in my life?
My ideal life plan is to have many true friends like family around me, a wonderful family of my own and spending time ,travelling. Living Life to the fullest, spending time with people ;)

im here today, feeling so mellow  - 
what i really wanted to express is , " i miss my smile " , "Stop thinking once in a while, it's Good for your mind, ;) * ""- another advise from P. thanks ;)
i miss being that awesome little Kiddo, perhaps that's one of the Biggest reason i wanted to Go back to CV environment just having my thoughts to be STOP for 3 and a half days. Just stop myself from thinking, stop my self from feeling. Sometimes, i dont think im the right person, Big Fish you know what? i really need to talk to you, so Mr ! do stop the Cold Treatment because i dont like that ;) it affects my warm temperature.

oh God, please take me out of this misery already. Which path am i suppose to take? i felt utterly exhausted, i want to rest in Your Arms.

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