Feeling so so Mellow,
Hello world,
i'm wondering where on earth did my part time teacher went to, the guy who taught me many new words is now Gone Missing ! I guess i need to call the Cops ;) evil much ! ;D & hey YOU ! do take care yourself wherever you're at. ;) & enjoy life.
winter.
dear world,
I feel so mellow because now that i've decided to stay & seems to be i'm not staying for the right reason and it wasn't totally for myself. what the fish am i doing ? i was given abit of the cold treatment by someone i care, even as i tried to get close to him but he just distanced himself to not get connect with me. I know how is he feeling, i know i broke his heart because over the years he took good care of me. there was this moment where i really felt like crying because i recalled the time when he wore the same shirt, i miss that smile he used to have. - BF
What am i doing ? What do i want in life, i set so many promises and intention moments after moments but which one of those were made because of myself?
" have a deep realization that the sum of all the values, experiences, contribution are the effort, experiences of everyone around you now, and for some even more." - P
i Guess, i'm just a little kid - who do not what do i want in life yet, tho many have set a future plan for me. but is that what i truly wanted in my life?
My ideal life plan is to have many true friends like family around me, a wonderful family of my own and spending time ,travelling. Living Life to the fullest, spending time with people ;)
im here today, feeling so mellow -
what i really wanted to express is , " i miss my smile " , "Stop thinking once in a while, it's Good for your mind, ;) * ""- another advise from P. thanks ;)
i miss being that awesome little Kiddo, perhaps that's one of the Biggest reason i wanted to Go back to CV environment just having my thoughts to be STOP for 3 and a half days. Just stop myself from thinking, stop my self from feeling. Sometimes, i dont think im the right person, Big Fish you know what? i really need to talk to you, so Mr ! do stop the Cold Treatment because i dont like that ;) it affects my warm temperature.
oh God, please take me out of this misery already. Which path am i suppose to take? i felt utterly exhausted, i want to rest in Your Arms.
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