I'm officially not confused anymore ? (:
I'm still uncertain about what i wanted in Life, my intention in Life.
But this decision was made because .. i can't deny what had happened for the past months, it's a fact that they've cared for me & my heart knows it Best. I felt sorry because i have taken a lot of action based on my choices . And i confused everyone around me, because i was more than just confused.
My realization is ;
Tho i was uncertain because i was given two ideas, and constantly people around me telling me what is Good and what is Better. Therefore, i was so uncertain and lost of what i truly wants . i did a lot of silly things. One event was, myself expressing my appreciation and my tears actually was about to run down my cheeks. It was so funny because the next moment, just like a snapp * i then decided the other option instead. I felt so much like slapping myself because i felt like i made the world go round, with my confusion. (:
This event may seems to be unnecessary as the result remains the same. But within this event i realize how indecisive i am and how my choices can affect everyone around me. I wouldn't blame those people who give me ideas at all, because those who advised and talked to me regarding this matter , to me is 'care' - and because i matters in some ways. So i appreciate it all, embracing what happened. And for their part, hopefully this event will not shaken their trust upon me and understanding that this is truly an event that i need to experience to find myself and understand myself more.
winter bob disappeared, and yea i do missed him once in a while - thinking what had happened to him or perhaps his busy with his things. Is it possible that winter bob is just a 'passerby' in my life? i hope 'not' (: - take care !
i was in my high yellow mode last night at clov's resident, and do wanna apologize because i can't use any form of communication when i'm at this gathering. Yesterday was awesome and yes, i'm happy as well to see GB back, Jeff is there, Mei was there and Big Guy joined us as well. The Night was Awesomer - yummy Food <3 Thanks peeps.
The Changes in me was 'courage' as i was able to have courage to face one of my biggest fear, courage to face myself, the courage to let go, be more of my authentic self, more outspoken of how i felt as well (: thanks CV <3 and thanks all the Super 10's in my Life.
yes, the word is ''blessed'' i'm indeed a blessed child of God.
I enjoyed spending time with the Boys and some of them , i really liked their personality as in - to the extend where i want to have them as ' friends like family' - esp kyz & zey ! (:
i'm coming Back Pops ! (:
much love
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