When i thought about you, the awkward feeling hits me. For Myself as a Tan Color Personality, dislike changes and fear changes. So perhaps, this is something that is happening and i'm just learning to overcome and breakthru it. :)
Back in few days ago, i was drown in deep confusion. i was stuck in huge dilemma on whether what decision should i make, whether to leave or stay. It's really hard for me to leave because i developed feelings over the years already, in addition of their love & care and i was utterly exhausted because at a time, i 'choose' to stay, then i also 'choose' to leave, and then i 'choose' to stay. Being so indecisive i can't even choose what i want.
But after alignments, im so sorry that i'm behaving like a child but do allow me as it's my stepping stone to learn & grow. truly appreciate the time & effort !
Dear Mentor, i know how much you cared for me, and wanted to guide me. the gift ;)
you were the one who step up and got me into this place, and im sorry that you were the first to knew about the news. Dear GodMother, Thankyou for screwing me up ! thankyou for your honesty, allowing me to be myself, and willingly to guide me once again. Thank BigFish the Most ! ;) because you see me more than any one else did.
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It was so close, and i guess i choose this over ambition, feelings and fear. (world's temptation) Otherwise i should have faith in God. So Lord, tell me what am i doing now ?
I prayed before it happened, and twice directed the same place. I'm very well confused and easily shaken, please show me the way.
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