nightmare ;

i had a nightmare. it was no ordinary nightmare because this nightmare knows my deepest fear, or its just me overthinking. :D 

but the fact the my fear seems to be hunting me. i hope it goes far away from me, maybe if i dont care too much it, if i cared less, maybe i wouldnt even fear that it would come back. 

i had to stop doing that thing, the evil that takes over me. i had to stop it from taking control. 😔 

the pain of love is what truly changes us. 😔 dear love, you may not love me.. you may lost your heart for me but i never stop loving you ever since i fell in love with you.. and i will keep this feeling until it fades away automatically. but the pain of loving you really kills me, when you stop caring for me, when you hide your text with other girls.. when you dont seems to see that i am hurt when im just beside you. and yes i cant take it anymore. if your not coming back to me anytime soon, im leaving :')