i changed

Face Reality !
You know what? Please do forgive people who made mistake and whom done wrong in your sight. Like please, and don't just Judge their ability because of their bad experience. I may be feeling/thinking/considering too much but i felt that my mentor was dissapointed about me and what potential ? i have potential ? i don't even know what are they so why is everyone saying i do ? cause No, i dont know what are they and i dont know what to do. im like a Lost Bunny, and the feeling i have right now is that "im lost" Cause not only mentor but Godma as well, everyone started to lose faith on me and perhaps my action had made them felt that way. So, think back and what did i used to do and which im not doing now cause i was excellent before and now i felt so untidy, such a mess ! i sincerely loves this Job, the main part wasnt about the Job but the people with me, i love the relationship i had w my mentor and Godma, thats what i cherish most and i didnt wanna lose. Imagine myself working for another 5-7 years wasnt that bad for me, instead i love it.


How about today ?
But today, feelings changed . my environment changed and i didnt like it. In fact, i felt like running away from this place and set off w a new ground. Godma said i couldnt do it, Mentor sense the limit of my capability which isnt true because i can do better than that but what ever they felt was the energy sent by me. and at this very moment, i asked myself " whats wrong w me? " why am i not PERFORMING at MY BEST? where my CV TOOLS ? goshhh !


Wake Up Call
im not going to make the next person be dissapointed about me & its not going to be tomorrow but at this very moment im going to be my BEST ! always always always !
Im coming back and sincerely i really am .




Love is Found,
i really love taking photos and i feel like collecting not just smile but those adorable kids. :)

i really love kids, and if possible i'd be all my friends Godmother as long as they have cute kids. :)

but i'm Picky, don't judge. (hehe)

i was just standing beside their mom and looking at them communicating, geez' they're really cute so innocent and they just say anything they wanted or do anything they felt like without thinking about what adults may felt. they're true to themselves. :) and we all used to have that, we just lost it on the journey of growing. 

i have a very supportive Group, thanks for all the milo support. :D

and the Big Energy Booster Truck! <3

Shouting out loud, world are you ready for ME?

much love from rui. <3