hermana

new chap ( BIG question mark )

i just came back from tea w some old classmates . Tonight , a night that was said but then wind came w a news . Today is just not the day , rather being upset , I honestly am lost about what to feel , what words to be said , what reaction to respond .

I saw a loving sister just now , she was such a dear to her brother . A sudden note came to remind me how i miss having a sister tho its not biologically but inside there was an assurance , a confident 'yes' .
I return home trying to search for a sister in my mind but loading failed . Tho there was a picture founded, but it shows 'error' - guess im uncertain about her ever since .

Changes , tell me how should i treat you ? I know your never easy to accept , but you were never too hard as well . Just show me the way so i know how to not get hurt .

Im just a sick kid who just wanted both hermano and hermana. I lost hermano , but hermana was there . now hermana , show me your next move. and i'll make mine .

we never knew exactly how blessed we are until we lost it . (: we never learn how to cherish and appreciate if we do not fear the sense of losing something . I fear , i do fear . There's always a tomorrow to make things right again . I hope my doubts were just me overthinking . Lets just see hows tmr , i pray that broken may be heal , pain may be heal , smile may be mend , laughter may be rejointed, love may grow . I need strength for tmr , so God please do re new my strength for tmr ! Thanks .

Love, ruiyee