i realize the changes in my life - by the people i interacted with, what i care & what used to bother me and now does not hold the same impact on me. Life has been well, i sent 3 letters just in a month, First letter was for my Mentor , second was for Winter Bob and third was for the 3 Musketeers. I'm truly glad actually that i was able to express more of myself, learning to overcome the fear of allowing other people to know how i truly feels.
I enjoyed the time spent with Mr.Cool ! thanks for just sitting down, listening to my sharing about my story and my life. appreciate it ! ;) & thanks for taking the Bus all the way down to find me, the effort that you put into it tells me that you worth alot ! ;)
you sure do look like you fancy me, but either way - your just like a 'brother' to me. Definitely a Cool friend to have. :) Great to know youu ! Mr. Cool.
Everything is energy, because i wasn't showing up too well. My team felt my energy & got pissed about it - i wasn't aware on how i show up, due to some unresolved matter that kept bothering my mind. i should have resolved it, i should have shared about it. And lesson learnt was - say what you need to say & do what you need to do before it got 'worst'.
I guess i'm the happiest person ever when november arrives, that's because i have a vision that my working hour will be shorten & i can finally breathe ! :) but don't make assumptions because we never know what's ahead, you'd never know whats been planned. It may not be as how i wanted it to be. Haha, just have faith then.
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November ;
Cant predict the future but i guess my time will be more spent on how to help the boys. So i'm going to spend more time with the boys & this is like 2 years ago all over again.
life @ night - i do enjoy every moment spent with Big Guy & the rest.
So basically life for me - remains 'awesome' . I can't describe how i feel but it's way too awesome now because the universe tickled me as perhaps i've found 'brothers' around me. <3
Life is just Awesome for me. :)
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Aware-ness Journal ;
i realize drowning myself with thoughts & not doing anything about it - doesn't do any good for me. Perhaps it's because i am finding my authentic self, to be true to myself therefore i couldn't put a smile on my face if i simply don't feel good. i think the word is - inner alignment, what i think, what i feel, what i say should match and not feeling this way and express it the other way round.
What i do is i write letters to them, again - writing letter is not an 'old fashion' way, it's just 'another' way. Tho i wrote 3 letters this month but trust me as before i even passed the first written letter to my mentor my hand was shaking with fear - fear of confrontation, knowing the feedback, fear of letting someone in to know how i truly feels. but i did, tho my Mentor's respond was - *bang* i got shot, hours of alignment with him, sounds like we had an argument but i do appreciate him because as i was talking, he taught me how to listen to what i'm saying - and i was able to know more about myself.
Don't fear to be wrong, i learn to be more of myself. Learn to be more courageous & fear not of other's judgement.
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Just as Mr.Cool shared the other day - he said that it seems to him i've been living up to every moment. && truly that's the Word - 'moment' :)
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i just feel well blessed now, the people that surrounds me -
seems like within the crowd, i found what i always wanted ;)
much love.
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