21st wonders

hello world.

ive just return from an awesome trip to ulu2 temburong with melaine as my guide and four other guest. it was a must do experience up there. it was so awesome when we're up in the canopy. that very moment, its like im actually on top of the world. well, many thanks for those who arranged me to be there yesterday :)

today im back at work. and i wonders how much has work been missing me :)

its not about the moon or cycle or season. but im just not being myself, i felt naughty and i thought of ignoring consequences. but angels always reminds who i really am and that im not allowed to do so. thanks angel :)

how much do you loves me :)

something is wrong with me and i gotta know whats going on. today my motivation wasnt right, i made a mistake and had the opponent wins it all. i kept my self silent because i wanted to avoid questions from my boss. but i know it was a fault that i shouldnt repeat it, perhaps my offday pattern isnt a good way. having 3 offday in a week had installed the 'slack' program in my attitude.
after my offday tomorrow, i need to start over again. had to be more responsibilty :) don blame it on the team rui, blame yourself. :)

dear boy, i saw you today :) you had my heartbeat to dance in an undescribeable way. but its a shame that you dont feel the way i do. who am i to you? im just a little doll that you'd love to have around but you were never in love w me.

whose in my mind? i thought about you occasionally. but truth is, i haven seen you in 11months. where have you been, how have you been? would you still love me the same when you first met me? have you placed me in the same position in your heart right before i left?
time had never stop running and the new page of our story is getting closer and closer. im just wondering- how would the new topic starts :)
i had your stuffs w me. but i lost the way my heartbeat would always be when you were w me. i love your love and your care. you were there when i dont even know i needed someone. you were someone i could never had but your always right beside me. you were the reason more love came into my life. :) dear brother, i missed you.

im thinking ahead and i visioned you w me. could our love story ever be perfectly fit in my fairy tales.

i want to know , who am i to you. what could i possibly mean to you :)


Humbly His,
love always -rui