29th August 2010 ' heartbrokened- slightly

hey readers, (:

honestly, i dislike having unnessary feelings and worries. I mean who does, and a big sigh ! how i wishh i could control myself and vanish these feelings that cause me second thoughts and heart aches.

Something is missing, changed, replaced, ignored.

I guess, i had another lesson learnt. But it came w a knock on my head. ' never picture your future w what you had now- esp friends ' now pops, that sad. When will it stopped, so you know we can stop searching for a place to rest. Guess, its very true when they say ' life is a journey, not a destination ' .

'what i have now, doesnt represent its what i own - even friends cause they'll be a time where we all had to move on once we complete our role there. Like a petrol station, you know? When you just stop by get to be filled up and it kept you going, continue-ing your next journey. Just like us, when we're done here. Its meant for others to enter and receive similar service but in a different stage.

I know whats keeping me, what made wants to stay, but pop i thought its a good thing but why it changes now? I dont want to walk out of that door and ..... But i guess i could never fight against your will.

Few years ago, this words came to me. ' one will never know how much you did for them ' - its true now that I recall. Because they just receive, they didnt get to see the sweat, heart. Guess, I had to be more careful (: might as well record as much as I could about what others did for me. So I wouldnt be such unthankful kind, just by a thank and forgot it in 3 days. :D

I'll say ' (:

I dont know, tell me pops. If I was the cause. I just hope smile again. (:

Pray that it'll be fine and things could drop down to how it used to be. Either way, have a great journey to all.

Do know that ' Good things comes from above, and bad does not. Whenever you own unpleasant feeling about some situation or people. Think deep about it, those feeling you had are not from the righteous one and if you follow and embrace it. You'll end up falling into the evil trap because they gave you such feeling and cause you to lose alot of things. (: precious one. ( Like how I lost mine. ) So dear friends, think about it and do what God would want us to do as I said judgement? Ignorance? And etc. Dude, thats not from the bright one. (:

Thanks for being here once, altho its 'ever' not thanks for being here till the end'

Confession of a slighty broken hearted young lady.

Until next time.
Xoxo'r