Hello World !
Gift Gift Gift <3
Lunch with Bboy Adit & Brother Fizan tadi @ Thien Thien restaurant !
Thanks for the treat, Adit - i was totally dried up so .. can't treat anyone - hardly even feed my babyboyy(car) but luckily i went to the bank and withdraw some cash ! :D rupanya - they just paid my salary 'pheew* thanks! <3
I was walking over to the mall, meeting the boys and someone shouted 'sunshine' :D
it was Haku 'rain' calling me. :D lols ! :D suprised*
after Lunch, met him again - same scenario last month ! (:
Back to the story at the TOP !
Adit is heading back Home ( Jakarta ) tomorrow afternoon. i was totally suprised to hear the news! so sudden, so we decided to meet - perhaps for the last time in a long time. (; dont worry brother ! :D hopefully some day, we'll visit you there! (; just keep in touch in facebook always ! (;
it's Gonna Be This Sunday ! :D maybe Monday - ain sure.
but anyways - love it when people bought me gifts.
Gifts from -
Yanshiang - Teddy Bear
Fizan from UK
Mark Leong
Diza from Thailand
Sophia <3
where else? :D
My Last Vacation to part of China, i was with full of cash ! :D
everything there seems to be so cheap after all the divisions, but the fact is i'm purchasing many expensive goods which i didnt noticed it. Friends and i were buying BAGS to carry the plastics we got because it's way TOO much for 6 hands to carry. :D
as i was having a whole list of names like 20+ people to buy things for.. hundreds of dollars flew away and just some were for myself. believe it or not, many of the goods are still brand new kept inside my cabinet and it's already almost a YEAR kept. :D *lol much*
this time, consider myself a year older a year wiser. :D
imma only get a list of people who matters to me and whom got me souveniors- Guess that'd be Fair Enough :D
will update more pictures. stay tune when im away <3
loving you always - hidayat kms.
truly yours,
rui
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
something ain right
Something ain right, something weighted it down and i haven got a clue of what's happening. When i was reminded about my well being, i recall back in November when i was at SS. A place i love, a place i call home because of all the love showered upon me - i found a brother, a mother, a Big daddy and many auntie and uncles around. But are those love conditional or unconditional ? Because i'm no longer with you - you're no longer as supportive as you were because i left harshly. you didn't received an explanation and as for myself i couldn't find the necessity for any further explanation. Things between us - are not well settled. Few days ago, you saw me - but that look on your face when you passed by me tells me that your trying to show me that you're doing well without me. I never thought that you couldn't live without me or things will break down if i weren't there. i just knew that .. you will be restless. that's all. (;
I've been in this place for a month now, indeed it's very slow for me - but everything has been well. They had the heart and do intended to bring me further to the next level, perhaps slowly when i am able to manage everything here ' i will be able to operate smoothly. My Superior was the one who reminded me about myself, i truly didn't noticed it. " who am i? " - i Questioned myself and how was i before? " What do you see in me that i myself couldn't and what do i own that attracted your interest to invest in me?' i remember when Big Fish always carries this trust on Me - that he sees me more than anyone else did. 'Thank BigFish for all the care, love, support, encoragement and everything- sorry for leaving, perhaps i do not belong there. Most of all, thank you and Mentor for the love, best of luck to you and you have my blessings'
i guess, im lost of who i am now (;
i hope i could find myself after the KL trip with my beloved Brother.
No Question asked Please! (; - because i dont want to think about it too deep yet.
pardon me, and grant me more time to find myself again. (:
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November, December, Now January -
The time that we spent together is Amazing, things that we do ' simple yet meaningful.
i enjoyed being with you, loving you more and more each and everyday. I'd like to apologize all the things that i've did which upset or hurt you. never meant to do all those things, i guess we can't deny that our love has gone really far and deep. thanks for the every little thing that you did for me, thanks for your heart that contained so much wonderful love for me. words can't fully express how we feel. (;
dear hidayat, i love you and i would like to spend the rest of my life with you.
i truly love the way you love me. (;
truly yours
Diqtasmers.
I've been in this place for a month now, indeed it's very slow for me - but everything has been well. They had the heart and do intended to bring me further to the next level, perhaps slowly when i am able to manage everything here ' i will be able to operate smoothly. My Superior was the one who reminded me about myself, i truly didn't noticed it. " who am i? " - i Questioned myself and how was i before? " What do you see in me that i myself couldn't and what do i own that attracted your interest to invest in me?' i remember when Big Fish always carries this trust on Me - that he sees me more than anyone else did. 'Thank BigFish for all the care, love, support, encoragement and everything- sorry for leaving, perhaps i do not belong there. Most of all, thank you and Mentor for the love, best of luck to you and you have my blessings'
i guess, im lost of who i am now (;
i hope i could find myself after the KL trip with my beloved Brother.
No Question asked Please! (; - because i dont want to think about it too deep yet.
pardon me, and grant me more time to find myself again. (:
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November, December, Now January -
The time that we spent together is Amazing, things that we do ' simple yet meaningful.
i enjoyed being with you, loving you more and more each and everyday. I'd like to apologize all the things that i've did which upset or hurt you. never meant to do all those things, i guess we can't deny that our love has gone really far and deep. thanks for the every little thing that you did for me, thanks for your heart that contained so much wonderful love for me. words can't fully express how we feel. (;
dear hidayat, i love you and i would like to spend the rest of my life with you.
i truly love the way you love me. (;
truly yours
Diqtasmers.
an expression of what holds within
Hello readers ;
Happy New Year to everyone ! :D
it's been quite exciting because many events and activities are just around the corner making life more busier and it feels like life ain that boring eys? :D *perhaps*
im not celebrating Chinese New Year! Oh Boyy, am i not chinese already ? * think all you want * :D truth is im not going to be in Brunei ! :D imma be at either Taiwan or Korea this upcoming New Year ! :D not on a vacation, it's work related.
Accepting one self for who they are -
Going through some obstacles at the moment, not a BIG PROBLEM - just a tiny obstacles standing on my way. Yeah! does stings me a little - till i almost lose my patients back there. But after releasing those stress, i calmed myseld down to my thoughts. and i found a 'solution' within - thank God ! (; and yeay! sometimes, i dont make sense at all !
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It was beyond my control when you decided to leave- Your absense has created a missing puzzle in my life, i dare not to look back because you weren't in the picture - everything starts to fall apart when you decided to leave, as your responsibilty was thrown down on my shoulder to carry on without any understanding of what's happening -no matter how much you've said you loved but your decision has shown that - there are other things which is more important in your life'. i can't blame you because you, yourself are just like the others - everyone seeks for happiness in their lives. it's almost similar to where i am standing now (; - your always hiding in the dark ' you dare not to tell others who am i to you, you taught me to lie just to protect your identity. you know it Best that your the one i needed the Most for how i cried at night just wanting to sleep by your side but you didn't open the door even listening to the cries of my heart. i've always been around you, protecting you even i was just a child. - support me as i support you (': that would be the best Gift. -
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#lazy to continue
Best Day People ! (:
<3 DiqtaSmers
Happy New Year to everyone ! :D
it's been quite exciting because many events and activities are just around the corner making life more busier and it feels like life ain that boring eys? :D *perhaps*
im not celebrating Chinese New Year! Oh Boyy, am i not chinese already ? * think all you want * :D truth is im not going to be in Brunei ! :D imma be at either Taiwan or Korea this upcoming New Year ! :D not on a vacation, it's work related.
Accepting one self for who they are -
Going through some obstacles at the moment, not a BIG PROBLEM - just a tiny obstacles standing on my way. Yeah! does stings me a little - till i almost lose my patients back there. But after releasing those stress, i calmed myseld down to my thoughts. and i found a 'solution' within - thank God ! (; and yeay! sometimes, i dont make sense at all !
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It was beyond my control when you decided to leave- Your absense has created a missing puzzle in my life, i dare not to look back because you weren't in the picture - everything starts to fall apart when you decided to leave, as your responsibilty was thrown down on my shoulder to carry on without any understanding of what's happening -no matter how much you've said you loved but your decision has shown that - there are other things which is more important in your life'. i can't blame you because you, yourself are just like the others - everyone seeks for happiness in their lives. it's almost similar to where i am standing now (; - your always hiding in the dark ' you dare not to tell others who am i to you, you taught me to lie just to protect your identity. you know it Best that your the one i needed the Most for how i cried at night just wanting to sleep by your side but you didn't open the door even listening to the cries of my heart. i've always been around you, protecting you even i was just a child. - support me as i support you (': that would be the best Gift. -
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#lazy to continue
Best Day People ! (:
<3 DiqtaSmers
Friday, December 30, 2011
my love for you - (;
Hello Friday, -
the last Friday in 2011. (;
Life has been Great, learning more and more about relationships. (': being with him is Fun - it's funny how life brought us together and Glued us together so tightly. his like the peanut and im like the butter - always together ! :D
There's always up and downs in a relationship - the ups are all the crazy, lovely, sweet, touching, memorable moments whereas the down part sounds quite dark. But truly the down moments within a relationship are actually more wonderful because through those moments we learn to forgive all the wrong doings, we learn to forget the past, we learn to accept one another for who they are, we learn to take a step back, we now understand that it's okay to be wrong and that we don't always have to be right, we learn that sometimes - we need to let go part of our ego, rather lose an argument than lose someone important in life. Just as if we can foresee that all the down moments are just a process of knowing more about one another, most importantly understand them and fully accept them for who they are. and thank you love (hidayat) - because you taught me all of this.
(; Moreover, i learned to be a better person - sampai learning to buat kerja rumah sama sayang sudah ne - ohlalala ~`
tho His my first but im not counting numbers at all. For Me, - i'm having a relationship with him, whereas in this is a relationship that i want to make it work, a relationship that i dont want to end, a relationship that is worth fighting for, i would choose to lose an argument, drop my ego but i just dont want to lose you. because i love you. and i dont mind what kind of life we'll be living as long as we're always always always happy together. even spending time with you always at home, it's all very simple but full of happiness that lighten up in my heart.
i love you, and i will always love you - always always be loving you.
if one day i run away, find me - hug me tight and don't let go. lau pun hati ku keras, tapi dah di lembutkan leh sayang. so if someday aku keraskan hati ku lagi, sayang shja yang dapat lembutkan - i don't want anyone else, just you please. (;
hope we can do the best for this love we have together sayang.
the last Friday in 2011. (;
Life has been Great, learning more and more about relationships. (': being with him is Fun - it's funny how life brought us together and Glued us together so tightly. his like the peanut and im like the butter - always together ! :D
There's always up and downs in a relationship - the ups are all the crazy, lovely, sweet, touching, memorable moments whereas the down part sounds quite dark. But truly the down moments within a relationship are actually more wonderful because through those moments we learn to forgive all the wrong doings, we learn to forget the past, we learn to accept one another for who they are, we learn to take a step back, we now understand that it's okay to be wrong and that we don't always have to be right, we learn that sometimes - we need to let go part of our ego, rather lose an argument than lose someone important in life. Just as if we can foresee that all the down moments are just a process of knowing more about one another, most importantly understand them and fully accept them for who they are. and thank you love (hidayat) - because you taught me all of this.
(; Moreover, i learned to be a better person - sampai learning to buat kerja rumah sama sayang sudah ne - ohlalala ~`
tho His my first but im not counting numbers at all. For Me, - i'm having a relationship with him, whereas in this is a relationship that i want to make it work, a relationship that i dont want to end, a relationship that is worth fighting for, i would choose to lose an argument, drop my ego but i just dont want to lose you. because i love you. and i dont mind what kind of life we'll be living as long as we're always always always happy together. even spending time with you always at home, it's all very simple but full of happiness that lighten up in my heart.
i love you, and i will always love you - always always be loving you.
if one day i run away, find me - hug me tight and don't let go. lau pun hati ku keras, tapi dah di lembutkan leh sayang. so if someday aku keraskan hati ku lagi, sayang shja yang dapat lembutkan - i don't want anyone else, just you please. (;
hope we can do the best for this love we have together sayang.
i love you, truly deeply. (':
diqtasmers <3 always always always be loving you.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
29th Dec 2011
Hello today is thursday laa ~ :D
and i thought it was Friday (; not too bad tho , 29th December.
New Year is Coming, why hello 2012 ! :D are you excited to have me?
2012 - the year of AWESOME NESS!
first time - sabar saja
second time - tembak ! :D
*dead* ohlalala ~
Morning world, Morning Sayang :D
time spend with my love is countless now. Basically spending every moments together,
we watched Sherlock Holmes last night and it wasn't a bad movie. Not too BAD ! :D
Yesterday was AYAMKU DAY ! :D
Life moves on, keep the faith.
for you, i will learn to be stronger and stronger and Stronger ! (;
i wont let you go. (;
will always keep this blog updated, wherever i am.
every momento, you're in my heart. [locked]
to my love Hidayat Kms.
do want to spend new year eve with you. but if your busy sayang, be busy (;
follow your heart. smile ﺕ
and i thought it was Friday (; not too bad tho , 29th December.
New Year is Coming, why hello 2012 ! :D are you excited to have me?
2012 - the year of AWESOME NESS!
first time - sabar saja
second time - tembak ! :D
*dead* ohlalala ~
Morning world, Morning Sayang :D
time spend with my love is countless now. Basically spending every moments together,
we watched Sherlock Holmes last night and it wasn't a bad movie. Not too BAD ! :D
Yesterday was AYAMKU DAY ! :D
Life moves on, keep the faith.
for you, i will learn to be stronger and stronger and Stronger ! (;
i wont let you go. (;
will always keep this blog updated, wherever i am.
every momento, you're in my heart. [locked]
to my love Hidayat Kms.
do want to spend new year eve with you. but if your busy sayang, be busy (;
follow your heart. smile ﺕ
i'll just wait for you. <3
Another day of boredom, so it's Brother Fuad's last day tomorrow. (;
not too sad now because.. we'll we're still close, no matter how long it takes, we're still the same. :D
next month ain gonna be the same ne more.
it's gonna be a whole new challange for us. but who cares? :D
baby, i love you deeply.
#off to work. hugs*
truly yours
ruiyee.
smile ﺕ
Monday, December 26, 2011
suddenly im addicted to this song. (;
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer
One step closer
[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
another Tuesday
Hello Readers,
How's life treating you? Life has been great on my side tho some may disagree the path that i've choosen, many may have predicted this path that i've choosen, and the rest of them have been great friends and family who supported whichever path that i am in without judging me. [ thanks (': ]
Everyone have their own path in life, whichever path that i've choosen.
i decided to do my best to make this work - (:
It was a Great Morning, no matter what. it's always lovely to see the same face every morning before work, or before my day even starts. (;
My life has no longer contain ME - it's BOTH of US (;
few days ago, while i was sitting in the kitchen simply watching him cooking.
suddenly, i burst into laughters within me filled with undesribeable Joy. Because all this while, i always thought about what type of guy i would like to have.. and i didnt realize that this person right infront of me has everything that i've always dreamed of having. (; the way he love me, the way he cares for me, his heart and ...
how's life? (;
Life has been well, i feel blessed. the people around me, and the unconditional love that was given. There's something i need to re think again.. "how do i want to live this life" (; -
DADDY asked me a Question just now ' is your life filled with happiness now, are you happy? ' - he (my love) was in my mind, thinking that his now in my life - i answered my dad ' YES, i am ' (;
' where am i now? '
New year is COMING.
i dont have a new year resolution - :D
just want to live a happier life, filled with more awesome ness and smiles with my love, his family, my family, mr brothers and sisters.
be more Awesome, and that everlasting SMILE stuck on my face - filling people's life with Joy again and again and again <3 - that's ME
Lunch with my Love and his family just now. (;
thanks Love for ordering my Food. <3
Missed you.
be safe now. see you soon.
Thanks for reading
truly yours
ruiyee - Diqtasmers <3
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