hey readers, (:
honestly, i dislike having unnessary feelings and worries. I mean who does, and a big sigh ! how i wishh i could control myself and vanish these feelings that cause me second thoughts and heart aches.
Something is missing, changed, replaced, ignored.
I guess, i had another lesson learnt. But it came w a knock on my head. ' never picture your future w what you had now- esp friends ' now pops, that sad. When will it stopped, so you know we can stop searching for a place to rest. Guess, its very true when they say ' life is a journey, not a destination ' .
'what i have now, doesnt represent its what i own - even friends cause they'll be a time where we all had to move on once we complete our role there. Like a petrol station, you know? When you just stop by get to be filled up and it kept you going, continue-ing your next journey. Just like us, when we're done here. Its meant for others to enter and receive similar service but in a different stage.
I know whats keeping me, what made wants to stay, but pop i thought its a good thing but why it changes now? I dont want to walk out of that door and ..... But i guess i could never fight against your will.
Few years ago, this words came to me. ' one will never know how much you did for them ' - its true now that I recall. Because they just receive, they didnt get to see the sweat, heart. Guess, I had to be more careful (: might as well record as much as I could about what others did for me. So I wouldnt be such unthankful kind, just by a thank and forgot it in 3 days. :D
I'll say ' (:
I dont know, tell me pops. If I was the cause. I just hope smile again. (:
Pray that it'll be fine and things could drop down to how it used to be. Either way, have a great journey to all.
Do know that ' Good things comes from above, and bad does not. Whenever you own unpleasant feeling about some situation or people. Think deep about it, those feeling you had are not from the righteous one and if you follow and embrace it. You'll end up falling into the evil trap because they gave you such feeling and cause you to lose alot of things. (: precious one. ( Like how I lost mine. ) So dear friends, think about it and do what God would want us to do as I said judgement? Ignorance? And etc. Dude, thats not from the bright one. (:
Thanks for being here once, altho its 'ever' not thanks for being here till the end'
Confession of a slighty broken hearted young lady.
Until next time.
Xoxo'r
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
crazy l.o.v.e.
love,
the very first 5 things.
'you made me smile for no reason,
'you made me smile just by seeing you smile,
'you made myheart feels so alive whenever your near,
'your smile for me could brighten my worst day,
'i just find you very adorable when you talks about yourself.
Most of all, you made me wanna be a better person. Thanks love.
Praying that, you would too. (:
love from miss awesome.
the very first 5 things.
'you made me smile for no reason,
'you made me smile just by seeing you smile,
'you made myheart feels so alive whenever your near,
'your smile for me could brighten my worst day,
'i just find you very adorable when you talks about yourself.
Most of all, you made me wanna be a better person. Thanks love.
Praying that, you would too. (:
love from miss awesome.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
26th August 2010' baby fever
heyys.
I miss being kid, altho yes ! Im coming 18 in approximate 3 month time, but in all my brothers and sister's heart im still a kidd. (: actually, i dontmind being like a kidd. Instead, i enjoyed it because i get to do what i like to do, express and ask silly question sometime without thinking twice. :D
dont you just miss being young again? yeaa' you look so childish back then, but yet life was better when you get to have things you wanted, you've been protected, adored by your cute innocent face and they just love to do things just to see you smile.
I used to know a lot of things and never would i deny the fact that ' the more you know, the more complicated you are' its true you know. we are growing every single day and the more we know about life, the people and etc. I ever wanted to understand everything about life, the way human react but now I think I wouldnt wanted to know so much because I dont think I could take that much. Just may God gives me those understanding where I could help people through their hardtimes and etc.
Big people think more than twice. They consider, concern, caution alot alot of thing when they could just do it. When we're young we do everything we wanted to do, cause we're not consious and concern about other's thoughts. Therefore, we ask we do we act ' annoyingly but cute at times.
I may not make any sense but I just think like come on, be yourself! Dontmind what others may think of you, for you do not live to please them. Enjoy life, laugh out loud when you feel like it. Dont laugh half way just because someone find you overeacting and gave you an unpleasant look ' dude, I laugh when im happy, Im sad when feel down, I cry when I couldnt take it.
'always be true to yourself - r '
Anyways, yeaa' thats what im trying to do. I am me, dont like me? Get a life (: i'll love those who loves me.
Did I get off topic? Oops, but hmmm. Yeaa, I didnt really miss being kid, but I want to be like a kid.( Am I drunk? ) Cause its fun, being adult is so... Old fashion. HAHA'
Today, thank God that He answered my prayer. (: out w sis again. Waving to other bro and sis, I miss you all ! Hangout more, yes?
LoveGodAlwaysAndForever.
Until next time'
Xoxo-r
I miss being kid, altho yes ! Im coming 18 in approximate 3 month time, but in all my brothers and sister's heart im still a kidd. (: actually, i dontmind being like a kidd. Instead, i enjoyed it because i get to do what i like to do, express and ask silly question sometime without thinking twice. :D
dont you just miss being young again? yeaa' you look so childish back then, but yet life was better when you get to have things you wanted, you've been protected, adored by your cute innocent face and they just love to do things just to see you smile.
I used to know a lot of things and never would i deny the fact that ' the more you know, the more complicated you are' its true you know. we are growing every single day and the more we know about life, the people and etc. I ever wanted to understand everything about life, the way human react but now I think I wouldnt wanted to know so much because I dont think I could take that much. Just may God gives me those understanding where I could help people through their hardtimes and etc.
Big people think more than twice. They consider, concern, caution alot alot of thing when they could just do it. When we're young we do everything we wanted to do, cause we're not consious and concern about other's thoughts. Therefore, we ask we do we act ' annoyingly but cute at times.
I may not make any sense but I just think like come on, be yourself! Dontmind what others may think of you, for you do not live to please them. Enjoy life, laugh out loud when you feel like it. Dont laugh half way just because someone find you overeacting and gave you an unpleasant look ' dude, I laugh when im happy, Im sad when feel down, I cry when I couldnt take it.
'always be true to yourself - r '
Anyways, yeaa' thats what im trying to do. I am me, dont like me? Get a life (: i'll love those who loves me.
Did I get off topic? Oops, but hmmm. Yeaa, I didnt really miss being kid, but I want to be like a kid.( Am I drunk? ) Cause its fun, being adult is so... Old fashion. HAHA'
Today, thank God that He answered my prayer. (: out w sis again. Waving to other bro and sis, I miss you all ! Hangout more, yes?
LoveGodAlwaysAndForever.
Until next time'
Xoxo-r
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
24th August 2010' brother D's bday
smile love;
i feel like saying ' thou shall not over do' cause YES! i have a feeling that i might over do it. Its a 'might' .
Last night was a blast, we made a surpise for our brother Dguyzz. And thank to all whom joined us! There's brother weesoon, kingyu, cheegit, george, sister maggie, geri, iting, yanshiang and pastor tony as well. You can review some pics from facebook. (; mostly thanks to sister yanshiang and brother cheegit for the rides. Thank God everything was going well.
I sing (:
...
Its so important that we always have faith to our God.
These past few events, i come to realize how important prayers are now. And i hope you do too, have you ever wonders about where you'll be going after life. Everyone knows that we'll die someday, well yes but maybe people couldnt bother much about it because they are too busy w the life they have now. But i hope someday, you'll come to realize the importants of seeking the truth of life. (:
have a blessed day everyone.
Smile always and treat others w a loving heart.
Until next time.
Xoxo'r
i feel like saying ' thou shall not over do' cause YES! i have a feeling that i might over do it. Its a 'might' .
Last night was a blast, we made a surpise for our brother Dguyzz. And thank to all whom joined us! There's brother weesoon, kingyu, cheegit, george, sister maggie, geri, iting, yanshiang and pastor tony as well. You can review some pics from facebook. (; mostly thanks to sister yanshiang and brother cheegit for the rides. Thank God everything was going well.
I sing (:
...
Its so important that we always have faith to our God.
These past few events, i come to realize how important prayers are now. And i hope you do too, have you ever wonders about where you'll be going after life. Everyone knows that we'll die someday, well yes but maybe people couldnt bother much about it because they are too busy w the life they have now. But i hope someday, you'll come to realize the importants of seeking the truth of life. (:
have a blessed day everyone.
Smile always and treat others w a loving heart.
Until next time.
Xoxo'r
Sunday, August 22, 2010
23th August 2010.
heyys (:
do always know one very-the-most important thing ; trust God till the end. (:
thats the best ultimate weapon of all, put your trust in Him and no' he would never fails you. I know cause i tried (;
yes, at times i was trobled' confused' depress' stress and all the negative-ness you have in your mind. we all gone through those, i mean who doesnt right but what amazing is the outcome of having faith in God and let him take the wheel. He'll take you to where your suppose to be.
I enjoyed the night very much, thanks to sister geri, maggie, iting, brother king yu, andy, wee son and that guy. It was really a great night, and i enjoy the fellowship as i thank God for he brought you all into my life.
Sweet love california, (: this guy, sweeet to the rooftop. He really can get me glowing. Winks'
days has been fine, couldnt ask for more. hope tonight will be to its maximum. Love God, the awesome of the awesome.
I miss chuck from gossip girl, barney from himym, more series please.
Until next time,
xoxo' r
do always know one very-the-most important thing ; trust God till the end. (:
thats the best ultimate weapon of all, put your trust in Him and no' he would never fails you. I know cause i tried (;
yes, at times i was trobled' confused' depress' stress and all the negative-ness you have in your mind. we all gone through those, i mean who doesnt right but what amazing is the outcome of having faith in God and let him take the wheel. He'll take you to where your suppose to be.
I enjoyed the night very much, thanks to sister geri, maggie, iting, brother king yu, andy, wee son and that guy. It was really a great night, and i enjoy the fellowship as i thank God for he brought you all into my life.
Sweet love california, (: this guy, sweeet to the rooftop. He really can get me glowing. Winks'
days has been fine, couldnt ask for more. hope tonight will be to its maximum. Love God, the awesome of the awesome.
I miss chuck from gossip girl, barney from himym, more series please.
Until next time,
xoxo' r
Saturday, August 21, 2010
22th August 2010' myheart given to you.
ohmeGee'
dearloverboy,
today, im quite silly - tell you whyy.
; realise last night why i got so emotional about the must-give-it-to-you thingy.
because, its represent my heart and my care.
and whats silly is, i placed it in somewhere safe but the thought of someone might find it special and took it out kept me awake for 2-3 times because im afraid they might drop it.
and im also afraid that even i kept you safe there, i worries they would be a mini earthquake that cause it to fall. i didn't sleep peacefully worrying about that thing.
Sillymuch, i know. I sound like an emotional bunny. :3 pathetic yes or no. Idontmind cause it's true i do care.
Im going off later, out maybe as usual- sunday, its a lifestyle my dear. hope greenday will be a lovely day, i have a feeling ; a feeling that makes me wants to draw a line after greenday. Just hope i would know how he feel.
...
Friends scares me a lot, like a lot a lot. Either the rapid change of personality or its because i sense the inner thought that really kinda freak me out. Love, dontfreak me out. Just stop when you know its not a good thing to hold on, most of all dont scare me cause i think you are now. Come back, (:
..
I really like the quote-
; if you cant handle me at my worst,then you dont deserve me at my best. I got this from sis fateen's fb profile, sorry w/o permission.
Its a really meaningful quote that I just want to share. You know what it means, I dont need to further explain.
...
You know what's scary ? Its not the knife nor gun ; it's the person holding it. Human heart' the thoughts from human mind. I guess. When I was young, I really wanted to have the ability to read thoughts and wonders did God actually give someone such ability but the answer is 'no' if a person were to be gifted in such a way, I think they wouldnt be able to handle it emotionally cause your heart feels like doing suicide itself when you know someone's thought but they talked differently due to the intention they might not even realise. Creeepy!
...
Did I talk to much? Talk garfield day or bat day? Either day, immmma do the old school skill again.
...
May everyone have a blessed day, im still a lil unwell so forgive any of my inappropriate behavior that you may detect. (: pray for love too and friendship.
Until next time,
Xoxo'r
dearloverboy,
today, im quite silly - tell you whyy.
; realise last night why i got so emotional about the must-give-it-to-you thingy.
because, its represent my heart and my care.
and whats silly is, i placed it in somewhere safe but the thought of someone might find it special and took it out kept me awake for 2-3 times because im afraid they might drop it.
and im also afraid that even i kept you safe there, i worries they would be a mini earthquake that cause it to fall. i didn't sleep peacefully worrying about that thing.
Sillymuch, i know. I sound like an emotional bunny. :3 pathetic yes or no. Idontmind cause it's true i do care.
Im going off later, out maybe as usual- sunday, its a lifestyle my dear. hope greenday will be a lovely day, i have a feeling ; a feeling that makes me wants to draw a line after greenday. Just hope i would know how he feel.
...
Friends scares me a lot, like a lot a lot. Either the rapid change of personality or its because i sense the inner thought that really kinda freak me out. Love, dontfreak me out. Just stop when you know its not a good thing to hold on, most of all dont scare me cause i think you are now. Come back, (:
..
I really like the quote-
; if you cant handle me at my worst,then you dont deserve me at my best. I got this from sis fateen's fb profile, sorry w/o permission.
Its a really meaningful quote that I just want to share. You know what it means, I dont need to further explain.
...
You know what's scary ? Its not the knife nor gun ; it's the person holding it. Human heart' the thoughts from human mind. I guess. When I was young, I really wanted to have the ability to read thoughts and wonders did God actually give someone such ability but the answer is 'no' if a person were to be gifted in such a way, I think they wouldnt be able to handle it emotionally cause your heart feels like doing suicide itself when you know someone's thought but they talked differently due to the intention they might not even realise. Creeepy!
...
Did I talk to much? Talk garfield day or bat day? Either day, immmma do the old school skill again.
...
May everyone have a blessed day, im still a lil unwell so forgive any of my inappropriate behavior that you may detect. (: pray for love too and friendship.
Until next time,
Xoxo'r
22th August 2010
heyy guys.
For the very first time, i dare to really admit im in love. I feel like saying my heart is 'SOLD' to him already. Altho yes im in a situation where i do not know how he thinks or feel about me.
Complaining ; feelings are boringg, they make you go up and down for no reason, sometime even for silly reason.
ahhh. tell me how you feel already, pops i just dont want to make guesses anymore. before i tries something really silly please, take this feeling away !
For the very first time, i dare to really admit im in love. I feel like saying my heart is 'SOLD' to him already. Altho yes im in a situation where i do not know how he thinks or feel about me.
Complaining ; feelings are boringg, they make you go up and down for no reason, sometime even for silly reason.
ahhh. tell me how you feel already, pops i just dont want to make guesses anymore. before i tries something really silly please, take this feeling away !
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