miss the 'old' you

Hello Readers,


Happy 3rd Monthsary baby, ;)
It's been 3 months, and 3 months seems like 3 years for the both of us. :D


anyways, today i'd like to blog about a brother that i have.
his not my blood related brother, his just someone i knew more than 2 years already. At first, we weren't that close - we seldom meet/chat or etc but we would sometime text and we would asked each other about how's everything and etc..he would call me at times when he just needed someone to listen to him. But i don't really know this person that well, his just a friend that i have and his just a part of this dance group that i know from. So, they're always in a Group. But his always a lovely friend that i have, the boy with the Smile.


I just don't understand now, maybe we both grown up. Perhaps, we've became more ambitious, selfish, it's all about "ME" now aye? ;) 


i dont hate you, infact i miss the 'Old' you alot. be it, if you would start judging and start saying other things ...  you used to blog almost every time and through your blog i felt like i knew you more, because it's all from your heart.. and after reading it i truly wanted to fill your life w Joy ;) but i couldn't reach you when you needed someone because i dont have the transport. Somehow, it's just so wrong now. Because your focus is all by yourself, you focus on helping others when you can't even help yourself and you pulled others down just in order to help others. :) 
If your Ego ness is still stuck in you, you would start ucap2 .. which is not Good.
maybe you would say things that i do may/may not be ikhlas. but could you even recall how much that i've been there? ;) maybe just a while, but eventho i felt that i dont want to but i DID because it's You. i've given as much as i could, even the gadget that your holding .. Just hope that you know how to think as i always say 'asal .. pandai pikir'


i really don't want to ruin you. you can do anything you want with your life, but if things that has no productivity then count me OUT because i'm not going to lend a hand. 
i hope some day you will sedar or maybe you are now, then Great.


what i really hope from you is, i hope someday ..
you would come to me, as a friend that just genuinely wanted to lend your ears and listen to what trouble my heart or .. truly wanted to know how have i been. Or a gentle Smile that comes truly from the depth of your heart.. Not with other intention, but just simply being authentic and true. ;)

i Missed the Old you. ;)

cinta

your so lovely to me ;)

I had a dream, and you were inside of my dream as well.

and i heard the sound of my heart saying that, 'im so lucky to have found you, because you were the one i always wanted - someone who could love me for who i am' then i woke up. ;) #truestory.

i've always loved you. 

will be continue @ smers blog. :D

unexpected events :)

Hello Readers,


No idea what is the exact time but the stadium was packed before sunsets. Everyone was so excited for yesterday's match, que-ing up in the morning just to get their hand on the tickets and indeed almost all Facebook status had something to do with 'tickets, tickets, tickets'. Some people spotted Indonesian scanning and printing the tickets with Full Colors, and some Bruneians photocopied the 'Pass' as well. 


It was totally out of my expectation that Brunei would have won over Indonesia team tho i never watch how Indonesia team plays but the way others describe them confidently -giving me the conclusion that it's not going to be easy for Brunei to Score against Indonesia.


It was heard in the news last night, there's were fights going on where 2 car's window was broke and 2 police were injured.


Anyway Last but not least, Big Congrats to Brunei team :)
expect the unexpected, never try never know ;) Just do your best you can really make everyone amazed :)




It's always you, DiqtaSmers :) <3

Congrats to Brunei for winning 3-2 against Myanmar. i would say we were lucky to be able to watch the match, being as early at 6pm - there's already a huge traffic and difficulties in finding a appropriate parking. And we walked a distance to reach the Stadium, not too lucky at first because the police closed the way when we just reached there. So, we went to the main entrance and it was full of people shouting and scolding the police to open up for us.. after a long wait, we went around the stadium trying to find a way in.


Just being very lucky that we manage to went in before the match starts and found plenty of seats for ourselves.


the Final between Brunei and Indonesia, how can that be compromise? :)
our MINI STADIUM ? Back when Indonesia is playing, the Stadium was packed !
now Brunei and Indonesia? :) ohboyy, better watch at home.


Tickets for Tonight is available from 8am-11am.
But people have been que-ing as early as 6am, and this is how it looks. 





Goodluck ! :)

Truly yours,
Diqtasmers

Not everything comes easily. :)

Having Deep Thoughts yesterday while i was waiting for my partner :)
A Question came into my mind - 'what brought you here?' and i asked myself, what brought me here and some flashback starts to replay but i shift my thoughts immediately because those are the places that im not willing to look back to. :') All i know is, i'm not totally enjoying my current job - i'm not saying that everything here is bad, Working Office hours? Office hours is almost what everyone is looking for, and we have holidays on every single holiday! it's a Great Job, with a Good pay and im able to travel when im chosen .. not to mentioned that i get to travel for Free + Allowance + Food Expenses. It's Great - My uncle envied that i was able to travel like that.
But this is not really my thing - i love to travel but i'd love to travel with my family,friends and love ones.
and Most of the time when im not travelling, i'd be stuck in this chair facing this computer and finishing up the same thing all over and over again. :) that's so not my thing.


so, im just taking it slow and see how long can this last. But at the same time, i'm looking for resources and till i have enough - will do something that interested me more. :) so God Bless that plan! Unfortunately, i got rejected several times and .. But somehow, asking myself more on what i really wanted in this life - there's another voice that tells me 'dont give up' , 'follow your heart, follow your dream' - and i'd like to hold on to that, and have more Faith .. faith in myself .. faith in Him as well. :)


will share more soon :D
off to facebook*




Thanks for reading,
much love - ruiyee
DiqtaSmers <3

Amazing Myanmar :)

Hello readers,


Just would like to share something interesting that i just learn/heard about.
Have you heard of Myanmar? What's the First thing that came into your mind when you think of this place?
the living standard in Myanmar is quite poor so people wonder hows the airport there would be, maybe Brunei's airport is atleast better than Myanmar's..


check out the size of the airport. :)

 Okay, so other than that i also learn that .. Myanmar people row boats with their legs and it's the only place in the world People row boats with their leg quite fast as well, and Other than that .. they actually have FLOATING farms where they plant vegetables, potatoes and etc..they can even move plots wherever they want due to high/low tides. Which is something really amazing :)

Check out Myanmar's temple on Google and you can see how Grand their temples are covered with Pure Gold. So i've heard that some people earn up to 1-3 bnd per month, due to the money there is smaller and their living standard. But they are very devoted to their religion there, which many Temples are made out of Gold but themselves living in quite shabby houses. :) so check out more on Myanmar :)

ohboyy :)

Just a kid with a Bigger Dream -
Oh Boy :) Atleast i've tried tho it's not everything yet but yea i did Tried like to so many places already. In the end, rejected - what can i say ? :) It's the reputation that i've build and the assumptions of support that i assumed would be there whenever i needed it.
But i guess some or most part of it i was wrong :)


hmm. not to mention much - shall resume, to the end till there's no way baru tah. :)
much love,
ruiyee.