miss the 'old' you

Hello Readers,


Happy 3rd Monthsary baby, ;)
It's been 3 months, and 3 months seems like 3 years for the both of us. :D


anyways, today i'd like to blog about a brother that i have.
his not my blood related brother, his just someone i knew more than 2 years already. At first, we weren't that close - we seldom meet/chat or etc but we would sometime text and we would asked each other about how's everything and etc..he would call me at times when he just needed someone to listen to him. But i don't really know this person that well, his just a friend that i have and his just a part of this dance group that i know from. So, they're always in a Group. But his always a lovely friend that i have, the boy with the Smile.


I just don't understand now, maybe we both grown up. Perhaps, we've became more ambitious, selfish, it's all about "ME" now aye? ;) 


i dont hate you, infact i miss the 'Old' you alot. be it, if you would start judging and start saying other things ...  you used to blog almost every time and through your blog i felt like i knew you more, because it's all from your heart.. and after reading it i truly wanted to fill your life w Joy ;) but i couldn't reach you when you needed someone because i dont have the transport. Somehow, it's just so wrong now. Because your focus is all by yourself, you focus on helping others when you can't even help yourself and you pulled others down just in order to help others. :) 
If your Ego ness is still stuck in you, you would start ucap2 .. which is not Good.
maybe you would say things that i do may/may not be ikhlas. but could you even recall how much that i've been there? ;) maybe just a while, but eventho i felt that i dont want to but i DID because it's You. i've given as much as i could, even the gadget that your holding .. Just hope that you know how to think as i always say 'asal .. pandai pikir'


i really don't want to ruin you. you can do anything you want with your life, but if things that has no productivity then count me OUT because i'm not going to lend a hand. 
i hope some day you will sedar or maybe you are now, then Great.


what i really hope from you is, i hope someday ..
you would come to me, as a friend that just genuinely wanted to lend your ears and listen to what trouble my heart or .. truly wanted to know how have i been. Or a gentle Smile that comes truly from the depth of your heart.. Not with other intention, but just simply being authentic and true. ;)

i Missed the Old you. ;)