Appreciation

the topic yesterday during pow wow lunch was "appreciation" which as i described appreciation about life. But what others really trying to share is appreciation about the people around them, their friends, close ones, families.


K urged that we really appreciate our parents as his parents just passed recently, J shared his realization when he was a Log, he shared deeply. went back to work, alignment with my team and i shared what we learn in Pow wow lunch about appreciation. D shared her care for her mother and how much she wishes that her mom would be healthier. F wasn't at this best self as he shared his unsolved situation with his mom.


i hardly have a deep connection with my parents. I hardly think of my parents face in my mind, i can only picture them when i was a little child as young as 6. That smile, i remember dad used to wear his coat to work, he used to comb his hair before work. Mom loves to bring me out, she loves me and he loves me. they wanted me to learn piano but i was too afraid to be away from them, even going to school i always have many butterflies in my tummy. 


So much has happened over this 13 years, everyday a wall had built in between us. it feels like Life has changed so much already, as i have more brothers they carried more responsibility, life no longer be the same for me. Mom used to dress me up like a princess and ties my hair before i go to school but im doing it all alone now.


When i think of my parents, i dont really feel that much.
Mother had left, as time passed. it just tells me that i can survive without one.
Dad was always busy with whatever he is doing, we argue alot alot alot.
i just want to avoid unnecessary conversation