dip myself into a pot of troubles,

boy am i worried, im nervous as described by my mentor because i clearly haven received the warning letter what shall by post by me tomorrow.


i thought i was doing it right, when i got the team together to realize our faults/mistakes and  we talked about ways to fix it. but unfortunately my action had situating myself into a new obstacle to overcome. i clearly show huge disappointment towards my mentor, and within split second he decided that the company shall send me a letter of 'warning' . 


Both of team got letters of praise but mine is the alternative. i was surprised and honestly, i didnt really believe what i've just heard. i was giving excuses that i wasnt certain of my position as a leader there, because my senior wasnt satisfy with me as a leader and she suggested that let there be no leader, but all as a team. so i didnt took the responsibility seriously, but for my decision had cause dissapointment and result myself to be dipped into this shit.


i sent a message of apology and there was no respond at all.
i then took the courage to give it another try, but then i responded in a way that i felt pretty much guilty upon for what i did. and now that im leaving for a course very soon, i wont have much time with my teammates in helping them organizing a better way to work. well my senior on the other hand is a pure slacker, omg! cause just by taking a day off today, i received all the bad reports of how she's taking care of the place. and i had to asked my bro to take good care of the place tho his the new boy. 


anyways, what im trying to ask myself is. what im trying to show when i sent the message? i wanted to make things right, because i didnt made it before. i dont want to show a sign of incapability. i want take that trust back from my mentor and my boss as well, i know there's alot of dissapointment. and geez' 


i really need to start off right starting on MONDAY.
so world! wish me luck :)


i met sham and mark just now. and ohh sorry that i wasnt on time mark.
but anyway, we sent the order for the shirt with quite a good price. $16 each LOLS.
Great! hoping it be done soon before sunday.


Godbless all.
Humbly His,
ruiyee