Messed again?

hey.

im just so addicted. i always ask people 'how you doing' and i always replied the same 'im doing good' - am i really doing good?

i just read my last post, regarding my heartbroken-ness. but thanks to my loving brother and sisters who comforted me with His words. - Uncle Nick, Sister Yanshiang and Sister Geri. - thanks.

Brother and i went to see JustinBieber Never Say Never and its really a good movie. His just this little kid having such a great experience of life. imagine within 1second theres about 33 tweets. just within one sec! imagine that. People are just so obssessed with Him and - whats that, that makes em all so obssessed?
If he were to come over to Brunei- i feel like kidnapping him :D
had a movie marathon for the very first time w my bro - but in the night, i tried to have a serious conversation w him - being honest or being too truthful really can hurt. people just change as time passed, you may felt this way now but the next second you can felt in another way.

My Job has been pretty good. im working well - its just a heartbreak when its so hard for me to get a car. my aunt wants to sale her peugeot 307 - im thinking well actually i really do wanna have it. but she then advised me not to due to the maintainence. - geez' so what now? God can.you help me?

i need a break from these drama! i dislike when i really wanna do something and in the end i just cant. first i wanted to loan a car - suzuki swift like i really wanted to. but then i decided not to, rather used my dad's old car. but my dad's car just broke down after 3days of using it. wtf?
Now another offer to have that car which highly maintainece. you know what? - Just when i want it- and then someone says 'no' its like - what now?

i really do want it so stop telling me 'no' dont use the word 'regret' cause i have trauma with that word ! :( - God, i think i do want that car. because its cheap and i need a ride anyway - if these werent for me then why it keep coming to me and then let off just like that?

Toyota Vios is like july? im just not a patient character. i want it so i can do something. -
am i wrong to decide myself ? im just confused and worried.

My Parents. im just speechless.


Today is Easter everyone. i dont really understand what easter means. people been baptised and im not - Papa, tell me why?
Maybe i dont need any explaination, i should just put my Trust unto you. Pops, i want that ride within this week please. - hastags iprayy!

Humbly His,
love always -rui