8th april

on the eighth of april wasnt pretty awesome. but what does it mean when it ain awesome?

this morning was a big messed when we failed to plan a technique for the war. i guess its true when they say ' if you fail to plan, you plan to fail ' and we did failed. sorry guys cause i wasnt doing good today. i failed to plan and i planned a failure war.

its not just one, but two. two failed. second we made some plans but we received wrong information and played the wrong play. messed up! and once again we lost.

i wasnt so down, im still strong! im still ready for battles. but things changed when i received a call. my heart kinda drowned away. forget it! i love and care for him too much and that i didnt even noticed that his always in my heart.

im not jealous. im just feeling upset, that have you ever thought how would i feel? why everything i asked from you, you'd always reject me. but you always get it for them? why would you buy it for them thing they just asked for but you wouldnt get me things i beg for? God , i wanted to have a good heart, but this really make me felt not nice. and i dont want this feeling. forgive me for feeling this way.

probably im wrong :)
forget it, i just pray that tomorrow when im back. i'd be able to get good sales and built up the team in the right way. so sorry for all the mistake today. sorry for not doing my best today. sorry for everything. i doubt that tomorrow will be busy and more challanging. please show me the way :) love you, God.

im going home early.
rest then shopping w my sis <3

last night, i went shopping. instead of my gathering w my brother and sisters. i post it on fb and second thought i was afriad that they might judge me badly. but then i didnt erase it because what am i afriad to show the world? judge me anyway you want because God sees right in my heart. He shall judge me. sorry, God. and thankyou :)

i hate when my feelings are running low and down :O



Humbly His,
love always -rui