one part of me seems to be drifting away ,

last few months , i was all excited . trying to expect the fun they may prepare for me . I was like all i want was to hangout w them , have fun . Hey thats feels satisfying . But today, the feeling just fade when massive bomb happened . I just felt so awkward and different after that person told me that they couldnt stand my words , the words i used wasnt appropriate as they sound like instructing/demanding or so and they felt uncomfortable . That was the bullet i took , and i bleed silently . I was out of words and instead of getting back to them , i swallowed my pride as many as i could and apologized .

Many time , my text was full of explaination ready to take the bullet out and blast one of my