finding my authentic self.

If you just left.
I didn't knew what to say when someone express their sadness about a friend leaving life soon. where's my mind ? i told myself to think deep, what if i was in her shoe and how would i feel ? wow, and the first person that came into my mind is Him. I haven seen him for almost one and a half year now and no, i never seen his shadow even.


Imagine if he just leave this world and knowing that i haven took any action just to look for him and ask how is he doing, which i'm always wondering for all this time and now that i don't have the chance to ? Gosh, i don't think i could accept that. i wouldn't want to accept that as a fact, no way. is this a sign that i should take action now ? :) * 


I had a Good Day, Big Guy is fully energized. you should have hear HIM shouting over kakaotalk ! :D and haha, its really crazy. such an energy booster. my morning was pleasant, tho i was half asleep but the policemen was kind enough to play a dramatic scene because i told him im married. :D and the act was so funny i basically burst into laughters :) 


i was surprised to received a message from someone who i really wanted to be friends w. but that person kinda acted cold on me, so i was like 'oh okayy' and i forgot it :) and it was such a surprised when that person actually texted and give me such great compliments. wow. :D talk about staying positive eys.


who am i ?
People starting to give me names and i kinda live up to it from then on. but who i really am ? the names given were great and definitely 'Awesome' but its kinda bad because it contains so much praise and compliments. and to me, they are not healthy at all. :D so not not healthy.


it always been part of my desire to learn to know my authentic self. :)
because my attitude and behavior always grow with the environment and sometimes, it grew in a bad direction. But, i just wanna express my gratitude for all the love and care even by bringing me up as part of those events. Im just too happy and i'm speechless as i enjoyed what ever i can do to make you all feeeeel happpyyy x3


much love.

not a bad day

i had a meaningful conversation with a guy name "Cameron" . The guy who purchased a tour from me and also whom turn out to spend approx 20mins just listening to me talking and sharing. The content is more about how amazing life could be and surprisingly i enjoyed such conversation. I started to 'tembak' them right even they opened their mouth and complain, i already shot them with words of positiveness! and haha ! i feel good and there were left speechlessly just smiling at me asking 'how old am i" ? well, age doesn't matter but its how we live this life. ( no idea which direction am i going now )


i stumbled upon a snapper and geez his GOOD ! 

check his masterpiece out ! 
this was taken about 5pm at serasa beach, Brunei.
and this snapper is really amazing, i mean i try not to even comment his pictures tho all of them caught my attention, but this one caught me speechless and i had to say something :) turn out his a friendly guy who kept replying my IG, as well as his Mate @amiranas whom also owned awesome pictures and this two friends have funny sharings on how they became buddies ! :)


i was a bit concern about the matters related to my country and i just kinda wanna raise some aware ness here. come on, stop living your own life please have some aware ness.
and so i approached a social dude, turn out his not a man with much words. So, ---- dead conversation ---- no support from my statement -,- #blahh  * boring *


Perhaps, they will start the talk when it like OBVIOUSLY serious case. 


I had a crazy day, imagine a day where i lost my security pass and had to bother my boss to send me to balai when theres NO ONE at all at the counter. and we had to rushed because London flight is landing, "sempat" me santai2 at the police's booth. sitting inside like im one of them -,- my boss didnt manage to STOP nagging and complaining but i take it all normally. it doesnt seems like a bad day today, nor can i blame anyone because the pass just suicide.


i remained a positive energy and haha, again the world reflects like a mirror. :) i had an awesome day.


Sunday is just in the corner, i could take my off that day. :D
ouch# but thanks BIG FISH cause im on for the next Journey :D


much love

Daddys love 

Little Girl standing on dad's big shoe with both tiny feets , cute ness :) how i wish im that girl and daddy is w me.

Really my energy Booster

One guy asked me something that i didnt knew how to answer but after giving some thoughts to it, i realize MILO was the ans to my secret of being a SUPER 10! :)

The empty airport at 8:22am in the morning ;)

not every mom likes stranger to snapp thier cute babies :0

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Taken yesterday while im doing a late night tour. 'sanggup' lah. for what ? one can really forget what you ever did when it comes to you doing one tiny bits mistake.

perhaps i can say the incident today wouldnt had turn out like that if she didnt cared for me enough. well, she did and thats why she ain happy :O