Feeling better.

Notice that I was on my way heading to a conflict again with my colleagues but thank God I cooled things down and we even hugged when we saw each other -.-

It was a peaceful day and a slow day as well. I constantly looking forward for a slow day but I know a slow day can really slow me down, perhaps I've stopped running, the bruises that I got over running was added with salt. (I think) and yea, im just getting comfortable and I have a thing for getting hurt now. So I avoid getting troble even if it means to be less right and more wrong. I just want to save all the trouble


And I felt that I lost the sense of responsibility, thats holds part of the reason how I get here with this feeling. Just like how I always wanted to change my family for the better, and no one listens till I numb myself up and gave up.

I felt awkward in a way sometimes, but I know I had grow :) do you know that your environment is the things that shapes you? And I know I grew to be better already, I learn to not take things to personally :)

first night ever, fuad dizah and I had dinner at pastamania, wow. Yums! Hehe and I was to informed that my car will definitely be out on Saturday! Tell me about life :)

nights all.

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Feeling abit shitty now

I felt a bit shitty now, after trying to be at my best I tried to be more cautious with the words I used. Not tone yet, I realized but somehow I still got annoyed because they happen to show up badly and it get into my nerves more. -.-


But I cant screw anyone up because I need to CHANGE! Need to breakthrough this stage where I stop getting annoyed or feelinhg shitty.

Dont let the word of the world influence your relationship with others, somehoe you judge and your attitude changed. Rather than choose on how to perform at your very best and choose to live today to its fullest. Live love life people!

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Life is so so GOOD !

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life is Good <3


I kept repeating the same quote all over and over again ! because Life IS REALLY GOOD! :)
Enjoy Life is what i kept reminding the world and myself as well, and Gilbert's Sharing today really relates to me :)

ohh yea ! i want this to be my background :D

Oh yea, i do want to share that im actually swapping my iphone 4 for an ipad.

does it worth? i was actually having in mind that iphone 4 is just a phone and i dont need it that much actually because all it does for me is texting and ringing And most of the time im actually using it for social purposes. like facebook and etc.

So why not own an ipad and view things two times larger? :)

and i prefer classic phones like 6700, or mini phones like x5-01 :D

thats why i've been searching for that in brunei fm -.- 

and also trying to sale my SONY HANDYCAM and if no one wants to buy my baby.

im going to auction it for charity :D

Life is good, enjoy life because i really do want to live life to the fullest.

tho im like in some shit now because my car is coming out soon and i need to start to pay and OMG i need saving for my next vacation where got enuf oo ? So, im telling myself that THIS IS MY LIFE TO LIVE, MY STORY TO TELL!

and I CHOOSE HOW TO LIVE THIS LIFE TO THE FULLEST ! <3

ohh, so my New Baby is coming out soon ! :D

My Nikon D5100 is now called NIXON <3

and what shall that Pearl White Kia Sportage be called?  - White Bunny :)

Love yourself Girl,

Im loving myself and finding my authentic self :D

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totally back!

Totally back !
i've came back to where i started! Im setting up my team and action is well taken now.
I'll start this project slow and easy with less expectation as well. oh yea, im starting the new project already which i should have already been doing few months back! Due to work, ive stopped this quite a long while and my team were left behind.


now that im back on track, im just being thankful that they were still around to support.
but my vice didnt felt that great, perhaps he hold some resentment within himself. So, i actually felt some uneasy tho i tried to take it positively, but that attitude is not that good tho. If this continues, its either me being patient or i'll just zoom it away. ( which mean me being honest and straight forward about this issue affecting future cooperation )


Life is always good, im just going to balance out my life perfectly for what i intended to do! will just pray that passion grows and i will still love what i do here, at the same time im achieving the other parts of my life as well. :)


much love

Life is Good :)

was going through some challenging moments and i thought that why life had turn so rough -.-
im like a lost bunny, no where to go. ;0


i was watching "soul surfer' the day before my off day and that movie inspired me to face all the challenges ahead of me. And i also come to realize that, i've forgotten how did i reach this point of my life. I remember that people used to tell me how good i was, and how many things i could do. even friends/people i just knew would surprisingly commented that my thoughts are more mature than my age. And behind the scene, i was actually going through alot during my childhood times, crazy times with my crazy family life. But throughout those challenging moment is how i've grown so fast. 


Soul Surfer is such an inspiring movie that inspired me to find my passion all over again, and it had shown me that challenges have mask themselves to teach us and help us grow. I'm now taking challenges are 'the time for me to grow' -


Im enjoying life - so so much!
last night, i was having my off day. Gilbert invited us for Salsa and i enjoyed the night with many others ! we went TK after salsa @ kiarong. 
Also after having a short meeting w my team, my vision of life is getting clearer.
Ive always wanted to do more things in life, and whats really holding me back now is what im doing at this very moment. How to let go, something that had assured my future?
Im a person who loves Fun and im uncertain if i could keep staying and see how far will this route bring me. Perhaps the only way for me to stay is that i dedicate percentage of my time for it and the rest for the others.


I have a dream to catch, no ` i have my own vision, intention and commitment.


One day, when everyone had shown me that there's no more hope. i Shall leave, but my heart will always be with them because they are part of my family and i wouldnt let them go. :) He'll always still be my papa, her as my mama and him as my koko :D


Surprisingly that his looking for me? Yes ! so surprised, its been 1 1/2 years.
Someone whom i wouldnt want to replace with anyone, someone that i cherish dearly, someone whom shown me so much care and love. :) i miss you, brother and even facing you right now' i will totally be speechless. First thing is, hows life? :) the last time i see you is april 2010.


Life is indeed good, because at this point of my life -
im going through all the awesome FUN <3
i love my new life, with work tho it can be improved.
i love my life with my new family and a new life is on its way as well.


''' i love this new life, being with all of you who is currently in my life.
i love the way the boys would say they wanna have my back and i'd be their little sister. 
I love my life where people loves me :) and i love them.


This life is Awesome and i said this before " i'd never exchange this life with anything else, because its way too awesome" :) ` and i really do loves this life, im living life to the fullest at the moment! :)

4th Oct 11

Too many photos, i just named my D5100 nikon as Nixon :)
Nixon owns 1,200+ pictures over the week, and i was having a hard time transfer-ing the pictures. :D 


Surrender ! Run and Escape! - yellow demands :D
going through another cold war and bigFish had to settle the problems for us.
after a bit of war, we hugged for peace. Words are not good enough for Big Fish, its action that says it all. 


I don't want to dissapoint you, please keep that believe you always have for me. Mentor shined already, and i wanna be there as well.


After the cold war, we had one amazing 3M Moment <3
and it was truly amazing, hand in hand and sharings <3 i really enjoyed that moment.


Nixon Nixon Nixon <3
still waiting for my ride and it take ages ! :0


I want to be better, i want to SHINE!


much love

Break those Fears

Break those fears from being who you truly are, shine wherever you are! :)

I just finished my 3rd journey and i really enjoyed it alot. Spending time with my mates are one of those 3M moments, i found myself very involved and starting to contribute as well. What is your intention, what is your purpose in life. and my question is "why am i here" everyone is here for a reason, and what are they ?

I love the new environment, its like my new family :) - and i loved being around them because its like 'wow' awesome :) Life really has its ups and downs because flashing back to the past, ive been going around from places to places and now, im here! there's no exact destination in life, just a journey so wherever life may bring you - just enjoy :)

Breaking those fears, i love passion and courage and i wanna built them up high :)

normally yes! well always , im always thinking about how people may judge and i always think too much about something small. even a little thing, i'd create so much illusion ;0 .

I want to create a new circle of environment in my life and i want to get connected with them. because they are indeed awesome. this time i really love those daddy-ies :) , taught me alot and i really appreciated it.

im still asking myself what i really want to do in life. A moment, i felt like stop everything and start something out there, but BigFish had done so much for me, *guilty* so i decided to stay longer and help. :) But when time comes. these passion either way shall also be released. I dont appreciate people who has no appreciation in their dictionary , so watch those attitudes because i dont really like giving face that much.