Dear readers,
indeed, it's been a while. recently, i dont feel as happy as i used to be and i wouldnt choose to find out what started it cause perhaps i already knew it from the start. being me, it's hard for me to detached once im attached. perhaps, i dont feel like going of my comfort zone but i have been in it for quite a while now.
thinking of what had brought me to this day. i could only blame everything around me for bringing me here. i could blame everything on earth! but then in the end, the answer would still lead to 'myself' cause i was the one making all the decisions. so can i hang on to the phrase that says 'everything happens for a reason? what had happen was actually MEANT TO BE?' i would feel much better tho if those phrases were reliable and that i could hang on to those words when judgement days come. but God, i feel like a lost child walking inside a complicated maze and it seems that this maze has no ends. i just couldnt find the way out now.
At the age of 20, coming 21.. maybe God is trying to tell me ' Girl, you've taken the wrong train.. this wasn't the path you should be taking....' being uncertain still .. im totally confused about life, about the so called 'destiny' and 'faith' so im not sure about my destiny and my faith. sometimes, i just dont know what to choose because maybe its my destiny and faith .. as they say 'go with the flow' somehow i ended up here. so maybe all i need is more faith. keep me strong because im such a weaklingggg without you. God is my Strength.
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