Saturday, January 29, 2011

a lost kid tonight

; i kept thinking about tomorrow' and it kinda brings my feelings to a worry state.
and being worried, doesnt seems to be any help as i asked myself to find the purpose of being worry.

the feeling of being worried about tomorrow might not be the kind of day i wanted, being worried about the rapid, unexplainable change that i refuse to accept. but why didnt i understand the fact that being worried is not a way, not a cure, not a wise thing.

' i dont wanna miss a thing ' - neither do i. but these words contains insecure-ness that seems to be like squeezing our heart tightly *breathless*

why am i always worried :) - i sound like a kid

but then after asking myself why am i being so worry over things that may/ may not happen which are all beyond my control. - i couldnt find the answer but i realize that being worry and kept reminding myself about the bad possibilities of a particular outcome is so worthless.

but who am i when i dont worry about everydays outcome, who am i if i were a person who just doesnt think about tomorrow. show me how to be a person who stop worrying about things :) -

i guess , everything is meant to be :) - were once meant to be so close, but were also meant to be a little further apart rigt after that. meant to be so close with another part of you but not sure hows the future mend our futures :) i wonders whats the story for tomorrow, the things that was planned to be happen, i wonders why have you planned in such a way, i also wonders why have you show me what i've seen so far, felt so far, hear so far and for so much you have taught and given me, i wonders what you want me to do with everything that youve equiped me from the very start. the life that you planned amazingly for me before i was even borned, i wonders what are they :)

Lord, before the day i was born. You had planned this very moment, this very second is what i always believed :) - that everything is goong according to your plans :) God, im trying to be strong learning to understand your ways upon everything youve put me through and everything you let me felt. the lesson learned, love blessed.

today, tonight- i were to wonder all theses perhaps im just trying to find an answer or trying to give myself an excuses. - i dislike the fact that i want to like someone when i dont even know them, what evil advantage do i have in mind to persuade my mindset to look forward for such events that werent meant to be ? why do i have such thoughts and ambition. perhaps my thoughts had run pass the negative-ness. my apologizes :)

; Give me an answer so i could stop drowning in this mad-ness :)

im just a lost worried kid tonight :) - but God heals and i know i'd be better tomorrow -smiles

love, ruiyee

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